Hello All,
I'm 21 yrs old and I've been PMO since probably the age of 13/14. I didnt have very many friends in school because I was an outcast/loner and over the year's I built walls up so that people couldn't hurt me. I believe the lack of social and emotional needs led me to P because there I was the controller of everything and I buried all those neglected emotions into P which turned into a very bad addiction. PMO turned into my coping with everything that wasn't right in my life. To make it worse I was struggling with my sexual orientation so that didn't help with me acting out alot as I got older.
When I graduated I accepted my orientation(Bi) which was big for me socially as I started to hangout with people more and starting making friends. By that time I accepted that PMO was just an everyday life for me and tons of guys around the world do it also. It was so bad that if I got bored for a minute I was right in front of the computer doing my thing. Any spare time I had was replaced with PMO.
When I turned 20 we had a series of death's in the family and I was also having alot of work problems. I grew up in a Catholic home but my Siblings and I were never really religious like my parents who after some time kinda accepted me for my orientation. After all these event's occurred I was shaken to my core and laid in bed for 4 days only getting up to go to work. I asked God to help me with these problems and he did. After that I started looking at life different and how I can make myself better for God who I didn't think would help me because I doubted him alot in my life since high school. As I got into the church i was determined to stop my PMO habits but easier said then done. I've struggled constantly relapsing then starting over and telling God this time around I wont do it and then relapse again. Although it has gone down alot from where I was at, I'm still struggling with quitting for good. I'm 21 now and I think to be able to stop for I need to have support which I haven't had because I like to be able to do things on my own.
I've had thought's about just giving up because I think well God's gonna get tired because I keep failing him over and over again but for some reason I don't quit and I just hope he see's that I don't quit and I keep picking myself up and starting again. I don't care if you believe in a higher power or not (I dont judge) but I would be lucky to have you for my support team.
All your stories are motivational to breaking this addiction.
Hard to accept you have an addiction but I don't want to live in lies anymore...I seek the truth and to be free.
I'm 21 yrs old and I've been PMO since probably the age of 13/14. I didnt have very many friends in school because I was an outcast/loner and over the year's I built walls up so that people couldn't hurt me. I believe the lack of social and emotional needs led me to P because there I was the controller of everything and I buried all those neglected emotions into P which turned into a very bad addiction. PMO turned into my coping with everything that wasn't right in my life. To make it worse I was struggling with my sexual orientation so that didn't help with me acting out alot as I got older.
When I graduated I accepted my orientation(Bi) which was big for me socially as I started to hangout with people more and starting making friends. By that time I accepted that PMO was just an everyday life for me and tons of guys around the world do it also. It was so bad that if I got bored for a minute I was right in front of the computer doing my thing. Any spare time I had was replaced with PMO.
When I turned 20 we had a series of death's in the family and I was also having alot of work problems. I grew up in a Catholic home but my Siblings and I were never really religious like my parents who after some time kinda accepted me for my orientation. After all these event's occurred I was shaken to my core and laid in bed for 4 days only getting up to go to work. I asked God to help me with these problems and he did. After that I started looking at life different and how I can make myself better for God who I didn't think would help me because I doubted him alot in my life since high school. As I got into the church i was determined to stop my PMO habits but easier said then done. I've struggled constantly relapsing then starting over and telling God this time around I wont do it and then relapse again. Although it has gone down alot from where I was at, I'm still struggling with quitting for good. I'm 21 now and I think to be able to stop for I need to have support which I haven't had because I like to be able to do things on my own.
I've had thought's about just giving up because I think well God's gonna get tired because I keep failing him over and over again but for some reason I don't quit and I just hope he see's that I don't quit and I keep picking myself up and starting again. I don't care if you believe in a higher power or not (I dont judge) but I would be lucky to have you for my support team.
All your stories are motivational to breaking this addiction.
Hard to accept you have an addiction but I don't want to live in lies anymore...I seek the truth and to be free.