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Sadly i relapsed to MO last night no P though and it was mainly all through touch no fantasy.
Starting a new reboot!
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Dang it guys i just relapsed fully, thankfully it wasn't a binge but still. =(
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Just did it again, gosh this is so dang hard! I'm tired of starting over and over, i ordered a book Every Man's Battle and it should be coming in this week. Hopefully that helps me get this back on track. I will start again starting now and especially tomorrow.
Hey will. I've read that too. But I think at a certain point I was falling into the trap of looking for the perfect magic formula that would help me and wow I didn't have an addiction anymore. Get informed but we mostly know what we should know and the problem is in our heads. But surely it helps..
Personally from a few days I've adopted a system of reading 10 minutes per day, and this will be going for 2 years. I have 3 titles and I'll be reading them over and over and over. Which is either in opposition to the dynamic of porn, keep searching something new over and over that's not going to satisfy you. 10 minutes per day it's the least I can do, after years of PMO.
These are my titles right now, but I think I'll be reading something else too, but for now, here they are:
Your brain on porn - Gary Wilson
Pure Manhood - Jason Evert
Sexualidad y castidad - P. Jurgen Daum
You're christian so you could check Matt Fradd too. But I've read many many books. I've like an entire section in my library LOL That's why I told you about the "looking for a magic formula". Because they help but you finish the book and maybe you forget what you read and boom you relapse again.
PS I hope this helps though
Personally from a few days I've adopted a system of reading 10 minutes per day, and this will be going for 2 years. I have 3 titles and I'll be reading them over and over and over. Which is either in opposition to the dynamic of porn, keep searching something new over and over that's not going to satisfy you. 10 minutes per day it's the least I can do, after years of PMO.
These are my titles right now, but I think I'll be reading something else too, but for now, here they are:
Your brain on porn - Gary Wilson
Pure Manhood - Jason Evert
Sexualidad y castidad - P. Jurgen Daum
You're christian so you could check Matt Fradd too. But I've read many many books. I've like an entire section in my library LOL That's why I told you about the "looking for a magic formula". Because they help but you finish the book and maybe you forget what you read and boom you relapse again.
PS I hope this helps though
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Thank you man, i really appreciate your support and thanks for the titles.
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Well i've been slipping pretty bad the past several days. I didn't watch Porn yesterday but i did MO which i have been do frequently. Starting again today on that side of things but this will be day 2 of no Porn.
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Hey fellow warriors, it's been awhile since my last post. I'm currently on day 19 no P still having some issues with M mainly from when boredom sets in from my insomnia. I'm still working on that but haven't had any desires to watch porn, i feel like it's finally loosing it's grips on me. I've taken up playing Trombone so that's been fun to kill time and help with the rewiring process. It's been 4 years since i last played and about 11 since playing in school. I hope you guys are doing well and keeping up the good fight! If you haven't checked out Fight The New Drug there is some awesome stuff there. www.ftnd.org take care and God bless!
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Hey everyone who might be still reading my journal, i'm on day 27 of no Porn. I relapsed to masturbation today and just reset my counter for that. I was on IG earlier and saw a beautiful model, just a face shot so i clicked her profile and she had some very risky images and that triggered me. I knew i shouldn't have done it but that set me off. I also just added a young family member believe or not and within the last two days she's posted straight up porn gifs/clips on her page. I hid the first one and today i deleted her, i don't need that. Thankfully i realized what it was both times after a sec and clicked away, i did not watch them. The struggle to watch porn at the moment doesn't feel that bad. I'm doing pretty good on those urges. Im also taking part in no porn november form Fight The New Drug which i feel is helping as well. I hope you all are doing well, keep fighting for love!
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Hey everyone, just a quick update. I'm day 32 no P and just relapsed again today to M... I have finally beat one failed attempt at 17 days the next is at 41 then 107 days. I think i'm in a flatline at the moment but yet still masturbate every couple of days? I'm not sure but i think it beats not PMO.