Porn induced to weird fetishes and attraction to penises

[JackTheNewOne]

Hey guys, almost two months without watching porn here.
But lately I've been fighting against strong and vivid phantasies with the weird things I used to watch when I escalated to different genres of pornography.

I remember being very "sensitive" to porn when I started at 13/14. I used to watch only lesbian videos and some hentais. It was more "cute", soft. And I thought that watching real life straight sex was kinda repulsive.


-possible triggers below-
After years I was escalating more and more until I got to know futanari, which are girls with dicks (in 2d or 3d animations). Well that was different and I was not accepting that at first, but with time I just got used to it and started to like it.

This genre of porn gives a lot of emphasis to the penis of the "girls", which are giant even if compared to real porn actors. Sometimes both girls on action are futarani, and the vision of a penis penetrating while the other is just hanging and bouncing was so different from everything I've seen that I got addicted to it instantly, my dopamine levels exploded for such novelty.
Penis everywhere. Something I was just ignoring some days ago, now are the center of my phantasies. Of course they were not men penis, they were attached to girls, but it still weird...


Today I was looking at PEgym forum to learn some techniques such as kegel, and got to see some penis videos explaining the exercises. That made my dopamine goes crazy again, and I felt bad for it...
I also like looking to my penis in the mirror, so it's not just penis in other people. I usually get hard when doing it...

Just saying, I still feel very attracted to women. Men never make me aroused, but pics or videos where just the penis is shown do makes me sexually aroused. I can clearly feel the dopamine levels going higher with it.


Well... some tips to get rid of this thing?

 

[willtochange]

Man i can relate on the being attracted to the penis part, i think overtime after have watched so much porn and the emphasis on that particular region of a man during the movies might be hitting that spark in our brains still. I think some men whether they admit it or not can or are turned on just by the sight of a penis, again i think this stems from how much porn we've watched overtime. I was trying to start doing some PE and i to found the same problem as you. It led me down the rabbit hole so i had to stop, my thinking was well i've already seen a penis might as well go full out. Best of luck to you man, my tips is to avoid pictures and videos at any cost.

 

[offaxis]

Porn heavily distorts your view of what sex is.

Fixation on body parts and images is something I can connect with. It's not what I personally view as positive sexuality though so I try hard to train myself to focus away from those thoughts when they come. The longer the dwell in your mind, the stronger they become. So it's best to not let them take root in the first place.

I see also on here a lot of guys who have shame attached because of what they look at or feel "attracted" to. It is not who you are or want to be really. It is just your brain wanting that dopamine buzz. The shame can be released in time in supportive environments when the behaviour stops. This is a positive path to your recovery.