I know it's only been 18 days, but 18 days ago i wrote a thread saying that i don't think i could do this anymore,
I quit the gym, i just was a bum, luckily being a bum only lasted two days and i sat myself down and told myself i'll never be able to achieve what i want to achieve in life because porn keeps holding me down, and it's not even just the porn it's also the side effects, the tiredness, the lack of doing anything, lack of concentration, not being able to be intimate with a real life partner, the fundamental things men need to keep going.
I'd never cum with my girlfriend, i hadn't have been able to, i'm a circumcised guy, which tells you my circumcision should allow me to be a lot more sensitive during sex, so try and understand the level of significance that has when i tell you i couldn't cum from sex. stupidly, i thought it was JUST deathgrip, masturbating with a dry firm grip and dry hand doesn't compare to the inside of a vaginaaaaaa. so i invested in lube, i masturbated using lube, it was nice, i could cum. did this for months!!!! tried having sex with my girl thinking i would cum, i did not.
i then googled "will abstaining from porn and masturbation cure my penile sensitivity" and everyone said yes!!, you see i still didn't get the message, i thought just masturbating with lube will cure me, until i scrolled down and saw a guy post "even though abstaining from masturbation will cure it, the most important thing is also abstaining from porn, as the high dopamine surges desensitizes you from a real partner.
ding ding ding, light goes off in my head. i abstained for 17 days, had sex with my girlfriend and i couldn't believe what i was feeling, she started out on top and within a minute i actually had to push her off cuz i knew i was gonna climax, it would have been embarrassing to be a one minute wonder so i actually pretended i had cramp lol.
5 minutes later we're going at it again, the second i put it in it felt amazing and i could feel a build up, 10 minutes later i came. she couldn't beleive it, neither could i. it was a tremendous feeling!!!
i've been at home all day on my own today, this is when the PMO thoughts start creeping in, but after spending a beautiful intimate night with my girl, i can easily dismiss the thoughts. i still want to reach 90 days. but i've reached 30 before, and i didn't feel near enough as good as i did now.. i hope i can keep this up!
cheers guys.
I quit the gym, i just was a bum, luckily being a bum only lasted two days and i sat myself down and told myself i'll never be able to achieve what i want to achieve in life because porn keeps holding me down, and it's not even just the porn it's also the side effects, the tiredness, the lack of doing anything, lack of concentration, not being able to be intimate with a real life partner, the fundamental things men need to keep going.
I'd never cum with my girlfriend, i hadn't have been able to, i'm a circumcised guy, which tells you my circumcision should allow me to be a lot more sensitive during sex, so try and understand the level of significance that has when i tell you i couldn't cum from sex. stupidly, i thought it was JUST deathgrip, masturbating with a dry firm grip and dry hand doesn't compare to the inside of a vaginaaaaaa. so i invested in lube, i masturbated using lube, it was nice, i could cum. did this for months!!!! tried having sex with my girl thinking i would cum, i did not.
i then googled "will abstaining from porn and masturbation cure my penile sensitivity" and everyone said yes!!, you see i still didn't get the message, i thought just masturbating with lube will cure me, until i scrolled down and saw a guy post "even though abstaining from masturbation will cure it, the most important thing is also abstaining from porn, as the high dopamine surges desensitizes you from a real partner.
ding ding ding, light goes off in my head. i abstained for 17 days, had sex with my girlfriend and i couldn't believe what i was feeling, she started out on top and within a minute i actually had to push her off cuz i knew i was gonna climax, it would have been embarrassing to be a one minute wonder so i actually pretended i had cramp lol.
5 minutes later we're going at it again, the second i put it in it felt amazing and i could feel a build up, 10 minutes later i came. she couldn't beleive it, neither could i. it was a tremendous feeling!!!
i've been at home all day on my own today, this is when the PMO thoughts start creeping in, but after spending a beautiful intimate night with my girl, i can easily dismiss the thoughts. i still want to reach 90 days. but i've reached 30 before, and i didn't feel near enough as good as i did now.. i hope i can keep this up!
cheers guys.