I am 63 and married 28 years and have been addicted to porn most of my life. It's painful to write this. So I waited until I had 30 days before writing. I don't have any awful story to tell. No abuse. No real cause besides unfortunate opportunity.
I just can't believe I am struggling with this at my age. I have been actively quitting for nine years and have never gotten to 90 days! It's always 17 or 30 or 80 days and fail. I'm sick of it.
Anyway, I feel quite good today with 30 days. No M or P. I realize all of my failures have started with fantasies. Then internet stuff that is not technically porn, and downhill from there, without exception. I have never pulled out of the dive once I nosed down.
So no porn fantasies either. No non-porn internet which can be used as porn. It's been a great thirty days.
I just can't believe I am struggling with this at my age. I have been actively quitting for nine years and have never gotten to 90 days! It's always 17 or 30 or 80 days and fail. I'm sick of it.
Anyway, I feel quite good today with 30 days. No M or P. I realize all of my failures have started with fantasies. Then internet stuff that is not technically porn, and downhill from there, without exception. I have never pulled out of the dive once I nosed down.
So no porn fantasies either. No non-porn internet which can be used as porn. It's been a great thirty days.