johnperkins
Member
Hey Guys
I'll be short and brief.
I just wanna share my experiences,my journey which is still on and gain your advices amd views.
Being from India never ever got a chance to get a girl so my sexual experience started by watching tv, and den internet porn.
I guess by 15 16 years of age i was a regular porn watcher. Considered it super normal and all my friends used to watch it. Also never realised when I lost my morning wood.
So an effort was never done to approach a girl and I was very shy with them.
At 19 i went to Thailand. Immediately entered a massage parlor. Got a rock hard boner and it was preaent for an entire hour and a half.
But i realised that i wasn't enjoying it. I didn't have the urge to touch the women.
And during my trip I was not able to get aroused by a naked body.
Didn't realize and just thought that maybe sex is over rated.
Then i saw porn for 3 more years until i couldn't get hard and aroused by a porn video.
I never saw hardcore porn. Was only i nto soft core.
Then my reboot journey started and it's been two years.
First year of reboot was huge ups and down. I was mentally broken but kept on fighting.
I relapsed quite many times either to porn or to erotic YouTube videos.
Now its been a year and I havent seen any porn or any youtube video.
I masturbate once in ten days or maybe more and not before that.
I feel the urge to release once a week.
Since last 2 month's i decised to visit massage parlor to gain confidence and see where do I stand.
I can get hard while undressing and can remaind hard for the entire hourly session that ends with a hand job.
Girls have complimented that it takes ten mins for us to get guys hard and you're ever ready.
I get regular morning wood now. 5 times a week.. strength varies.
I can get hard by my own hand. I also get hard at the sight of a hot women.
I get spontaneous erections too. Also, when i masturbate i don't give a fuck anymore and i dont fall into a flat line.
If I feel sad or dead dick or low libido i get normal maximum in a week.
Few days back I managed to get a girl though we broke up.
We met twice but we spoke to each other for hours in a span of month.
Whenever she used to seduce or we used to have phone sex I instantly used to get hard on phone and used to be hard for the entire sexual time.
Now the Negatives-
I still am not aroused. But I can get hard instantly without any stimulation.
Even in the massage parlors the girls body does not arouse me. But I get hard and remain hard for an hour until I cum.
Arousal has been a problem since that trip tp Thailand. I have fucked a whore a year back with a condom but felt least of the arousal for the naked. Body.
There is least urge to touch the body of a women. But i can get hard.
I don't know where do I stand. I've shared by in and outs with you.
Also I remember shooting my cum some years back and now I just dribble and rarely shoot.
Thanks
I'll be short and brief.
I just wanna share my experiences,my journey which is still on and gain your advices amd views.
Being from India never ever got a chance to get a girl so my sexual experience started by watching tv, and den internet porn.
I guess by 15 16 years of age i was a regular porn watcher. Considered it super normal and all my friends used to watch it. Also never realised when I lost my morning wood.
So an effort was never done to approach a girl and I was very shy with them.
At 19 i went to Thailand. Immediately entered a massage parlor. Got a rock hard boner and it was preaent for an entire hour and a half.
But i realised that i wasn't enjoying it. I didn't have the urge to touch the women.
And during my trip I was not able to get aroused by a naked body.
Didn't realize and just thought that maybe sex is over rated.
Then i saw porn for 3 more years until i couldn't get hard and aroused by a porn video.
I never saw hardcore porn. Was only i nto soft core.
Then my reboot journey started and it's been two years.
First year of reboot was huge ups and down. I was mentally broken but kept on fighting.
I relapsed quite many times either to porn or to erotic YouTube videos.
Now its been a year and I havent seen any porn or any youtube video.
I masturbate once in ten days or maybe more and not before that.
I feel the urge to release once a week.
Since last 2 month's i decised to visit massage parlor to gain confidence and see where do I stand.
I can get hard while undressing and can remaind hard for the entire hourly session that ends with a hand job.
Girls have complimented that it takes ten mins for us to get guys hard and you're ever ready.
I get regular morning wood now. 5 times a week.. strength varies.
I can get hard by my own hand. I also get hard at the sight of a hot women.
I get spontaneous erections too. Also, when i masturbate i don't give a fuck anymore and i dont fall into a flat line.
If I feel sad or dead dick or low libido i get normal maximum in a week.
Few days back I managed to get a girl though we broke up.
We met twice but we spoke to each other for hours in a span of month.
Whenever she used to seduce or we used to have phone sex I instantly used to get hard on phone and used to be hard for the entire sexual time.
Now the Negatives-
I still am not aroused. But I can get hard instantly without any stimulation.
Even in the massage parlors the girls body does not arouse me. But I get hard and remain hard for an hour until I cum.
Arousal has been a problem since that trip tp Thailand. I have fucked a whore a year back with a condom but felt least of the arousal for the naked. Body.
There is least urge to touch the body of a women. But i can get hard.
I don't know where do I stand. I've shared by in and outs with you.
Also I remember shooting my cum some years back and now I just dribble and rarely shoot.
Thanks