Honestly I didn't want to post this, because its very upsetting, but I don't have anyone else to talk to. I am really struggling, ending up going back to porn, even when I don't really get erections anymore. I am tired and frustrated, it even gave me OCD regarding the genres I have seen. I read some serious stuff, hardcore would be one way of putting it. Stuff I have scene, not sure if you have heard of these, but here goes. Netorare, Cheating, Rape, lolicon and more. I honestly don't feel like I can heal full stop, even if I did stop this addiction, I wouldn't fully recover, probably because it is to extreme, for me to ever be in a relationship, or mentally heal, that's if I ever get erection now. Please help me, this is to personal, for me to even consider posting on the forums. Have you seen cases like these, and did they ever recover?. because I feel like scum and disgusting....I cant even leave the house anymore, because I hate myself. Apart of me wants to die, because of this shit, including lolicon