Cant get past day 4

[Arctichowler]

So usually I do pretty well in the very beginning but once I hit day 4 or 5 its like im drunk in the sense my mindset is messed up in terms of thinking rationally. Like I have no willpower to fight urges. I assume many others are fighting this problem too. Well heres to trying again and see how far i get.

 

[ademjack]

Yes, we all are in same boat. I too have strong urge even today. I am feeling frustrated, cannot focus on work, sad, broke. Sometime random thoughts of watching porn to change my mood flashes through my mind but I try to ignore it.
The other time when I have strong urge is after night fall which usually happen after 10-15 days of rebooting. The next day of night fall is very tough. There is strong sensation keeps moving around penis which forces to touch it which later move me to watch porn to silent my mind. 
My mind will say I will just watch for few minutes then stop but it keep watching for hour until masturbation is done.

I have now installed filter software and when I feel a strong urge I try to take deep breath and sleep. Once sleep is done I feel no need of porn.

 

[offaxis]

Yes, that dopamine pull is extremely strong. I think it is impossible to fight alone.

Fill your life with other things.

If you know day 4-5 or whatever it is caused you to relapse then plan your diary so you are out all day or evening to avoid being alone with a computer. Remove the opportunity risk. Anyone can do this for two days.

Go for a walk, gym, dance class, martial arts, bowling, drove, music whatever it takes. Better if it's social involving others but even alone it is better than porn.

This way you will make it day 6. This will be a new PB for you and a big achievement. From that achievement, you can build more. There will be setbacks. Unexpected obstacles will occur. But you are a man, you can build your own life and choose.

Keep this up and over time the fog will lift slowly and steadily. There will not be some big "aha" moment but a series of steps where you choose what to fill your life with. It is all in those little decisions moment by moment that the real big things flow from. Moving a mountain one rock at a time. Each day you can choose to move one rock or not.

Peace.

 

[Rockit]

You won't beat this with willpower alone.  It requires actual work to get a good "streak" going.

Develop some other positive hobbies/routines.