This is not my first Journal but I have been away for a long time - I think I gave up on giving up and to be honest i don't think I was actually willing to stop. I am now ready and this is it I am rebooting starting today.
I have been watching porn on and off for about 16 years but at the start when the internet was slow it really wasn't so bad but as speed have increased so has the amount of porn. My main issue is not ED but is the escalation of material - it has got to the point where almost without fail i will end PMO feeling racked with guilt and shame. The crazy thing is that i know I always end up feeling that way and yet I still go down that path. Anyway I don't want to ramble on and bore anyone who can be arsed to read this.
Like i say I am ready to reboot, i am currently laid up with multiple injuries after a motorbike crash and feel its a a make a break time - i have a lot of time on my hands and I don't want to go straight back to the worst its been, which it clearly could lying about on my own all day recovering. I am taking action to stop and i hope to use this forum and the tracker to maintain some accountability with all you rebooters!
Thanks for reading and i wish you all well on you journeys.
I have been watching porn on and off for about 16 years but at the start when the internet was slow it really wasn't so bad but as speed have increased so has the amount of porn. My main issue is not ED but is the escalation of material - it has got to the point where almost without fail i will end PMO feeling racked with guilt and shame. The crazy thing is that i know I always end up feeling that way and yet I still go down that path. Anyway I don't want to ramble on and bore anyone who can be arsed to read this.
Like i say I am ready to reboot, i am currently laid up with multiple injuries after a motorbike crash and feel its a a make a break time - i have a lot of time on my hands and I don't want to go straight back to the worst its been, which it clearly could lying about on my own all day recovering. I am taking action to stop and i hope to use this forum and the tracker to maintain some accountability with all you rebooters!
Thanks for reading and i wish you all well on you journeys.