Hi all
Firstly, can I just say that I wish I'd stumbled across this website years ago. It's amazing to see that there are literally thousands of other people battling with the same things I've battled with for years.
I'm 37. I'm married with two children. I'm a Christian and I've been involved in church ministry since I was about 16.
I've struggled on and off with masturbation, pornography, online chat-rooms and so on for over 20 years. It's come and gone over that time - I've got free, relapsed, and so on for much of that time. Things however came to a head in 2014 when my wife discovered that I'd met a girl online and then met her in real life, sleeping with her.
I got clean again for over five months, and then relapsed again on a day that I was at home unwell. Since then, it's been an on and off struggle until the Saturday before last where things came to a head again.
I've struggled with self-image for most of my life - always felt like I've had to prove myself in terms of the way I look, my attraction to others and so on. Which is crazy, as I have a beautiful, caring, supportive wife and two lovely children.
It's just got to the stage now where I'm 37, sick of being controlled by these thoughts and I want to break free.
I'm currently 10 days' clean of porn, chat rooms and so on. I'm so glad to stumble across this forum as there is nobody in my life who really properly understands the struggle I have. (Or if they do, they're keeping a poker face about it).
All encouragement, prayers and support welcome. Hoping to keep this up for as long as it takes.
Firstly, can I just say that I wish I'd stumbled across this website years ago. It's amazing to see that there are literally thousands of other people battling with the same things I've battled with for years.
I'm 37. I'm married with two children. I'm a Christian and I've been involved in church ministry since I was about 16.
I've struggled on and off with masturbation, pornography, online chat-rooms and so on for over 20 years. It's come and gone over that time - I've got free, relapsed, and so on for much of that time. Things however came to a head in 2014 when my wife discovered that I'd met a girl online and then met her in real life, sleeping with her.
I got clean again for over five months, and then relapsed again on a day that I was at home unwell. Since then, it's been an on and off struggle until the Saturday before last where things came to a head again.
I've struggled with self-image for most of my life - always felt like I've had to prove myself in terms of the way I look, my attraction to others and so on. Which is crazy, as I have a beautiful, caring, supportive wife and two lovely children.
It's just got to the stage now where I'm 37, sick of being controlled by these thoughts and I want to break free.
I'm currently 10 days' clean of porn, chat rooms and so on. I'm so glad to stumble across this forum as there is nobody in my life who really properly understands the struggle I have. (Or if they do, they're keeping a poker face about it).
All encouragement, prayers and support welcome. Hoping to keep this up for as long as it takes.