Time to Change

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d2222

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I've been struggling with this problem for years. It started in high school, got worse in college, and is getting close to consuming my life now. I'm finally ready to admit to myself and others in this forum that I have a problem...

I am addicted to internet pornography.

I'm ready to make a change. I know that if I don't, my life could very well be ruined. It's just a matter of time.

This is the first step.

I pray for the strength to recover.

I know I can.

I will.

Friday, March 21st, 2014
 
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humbled_eved

Member
dude, u r definitely in the RIGHT PLACE! We all have that problem here. A lot of us have had success gaining ground in this addiction, especially in real, physical terms. Like you said, acknowledgement is the first step. The next step is realizing that there is hope and that, with hard work and support, you will get through this stronger than you've ever been. We're with u buddy.

humbled
 
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tkn0

Guest
I am addicted to internet pornography.

I'm ready to make a change. I know that if I don't, my life could very well be ruined. It's just a matter of time.

This is the first step.

I pray for the strength to recover.

I know I can.

I will.
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We are all here for you, journal anything you like, there is always someone reading and responding.
I send you strength and love from europe :)
 
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d2222

Guest
Day 1: Success

I'm about to go to bed now. Tomorrow will be day two. I feel like this isn't something I can take one day at a time right now... more like one moment at a time, but so far, this process has felt very therapeutic.

Starting tomorrow, I plan to begin recounting some of my personal experiences which led me to this point. I feel like releasing all of this is one way for me to own up to things I've done.

Finally, I pray for the strength to persevere.
 
robust

robust

Active Member
d2222 said:
I'm about to go to bed now. Tomorrow will be day two. I feel like this isn't something I can take one day at a time right now... more like one moment at a time, but so far, this process has felt very therapeutic.

Starting tomorrow, I plan to begin recounting some of my personal experiences which led me to this point. I feel like releasing all of this is one way for me to own up to things I've done.

Finally, I pray for the strength to persevere.
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Stay strong, brother. You're right by saying it's not one day at a time. It's one moment at a time. But that's life. You've only got your moment. Recounting your "story" can be a good thing to do. However, don't overdo it. One of the many benefits of this journey is that your thoughts are getting calm. Thinking is - most of the time - not worth it. You'll realize that soon. Learn from your mistakes, but then let them go.
 
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d2222

Guest
Robust,
I've read a lot of the replies you've left on other threads. You make a lot of good points. We're lucky to have you here.
 
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d2222

Guest
Day 2: Success

Starting day two... Ironically, it was during a PMO yesterday morning that I found Reboot Nation. I realized that I was reaching a tipping point. All it took was a Google search and Gabe's youtube videos. It's been a whirlwind, but I'm glad I'm here.

One moment at a time.

One day at a time.
 
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rocknroll

Member
Awesome bro. You are changing. I'm on Day 6. I joined RN just a few seconds ago. My experience was that, it was hard on the day 2. Hope u crossed it. To tell you, testosterone peaks in our body on day 7 post MO. Until testosterone levels are down n balances, its difficult (But possible) Then you r good to go. Good luck.
I pray for your strength.
Rocknroll.
 
jms42

jms42

Member
It takes a lot of strength to take this first step. It's going to be a bumpy ride. But we'll all be here to help along the way. And always remember why you're doing this in the first place. Best of luck :D
 
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d2222

Guest
Day 3: Success

Yesterday was great. Didn't really have any urges to PMO, but I was busy, so I'm sure that made it easier. Today will be tougher. There's a window of time on Sundays that I used to use for PMO every week. I think this'll be my first real test.

 
robust

robust

Active Member
d2222 said:
I think this'll be my first real test.
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Tests only require skills that you already have. Challenges make you grow. So regard it as a challenge. Watch your words, young fellow. :)
 
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d2222

Guest
Again, taking it one moment at a time, but I can safely say, as of right now, I have every opportunity to PMO, but have no desire to do so. In fact, the only thing I'm dreading is that I've got to prepare some stuff for work tomorrow and I'm dragging me feet on getting started. Bleh... I guess it's time to begin.

On a lighter note, if you ever need to take your mind off "certain things," this should help...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gcWb8f25z0A

Enjoy the day!
 
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d2222

Guest
Today's been great. I thought it would be really difficult. I think things will be even easier during the week, since I'll be busier with work, but I'm still taking it one day at a time. I feel like I just need to keep reminding myself that I'm a recovering addict, a recovering addict.
 
Partingglass

Partingglass

Member
Hang in there man. Keep killing it. Sounds like you got a good start. It is tough. I am am at then end of week one and it has been one of the harder things I have done in my life.
 
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d2222

Guest
Another day without any trouble.
I'm trying to reset a lot of things... I'm usually pretty good about my diet, but last fall, that slipped. It's not that I'm overweight (6'2'' - 170 lbs.), more just out of shape. Ever since I decided to stop PMO last Friday, it just seemed like the perfect time to reevaluate other aspects of my life. At any rate, so far, I notice that I think with more clarity and focus, definitely not wasting as much time (especially on the computer), and just have a more optimistic outlook in general. My only concern it that it's seemed a little too easy. I guess the weekend will be the next challenge.
 
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d2222

Guest
So far, so good. Still don't have any desire to PMO, but I'm mindful that it could be because I'm so busy with work during the week. At any rate, I'll take what I can get. I haven't had such a positive outlook in years.
 
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iektop

Guest
Good luck man. And congratulations.

It takes some to realize this, and takes even more to acknowledge this to yourself and someone else.

Greeting and good luck.
 
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d2222

Guest
So far, so good. Nine days and counting. I haven't faced any close calls yet. There's a lot going on in my life now (good things) that make it easier to take my mind off PMO. Plus, I have so much to be thankful for.

Life is good.
 
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