Got to be so careful

[laalee]

Today while looking at Reboot nation on you tube there was  a post from a person that use to do porn movies and his stories
it led me to seek this movie of course it was porn looked then turned it off OMG it is everywhere even being innocent
watch out Men

 

[laalee]

Today woke up we have daylight saving best time of year. Nice weather very windy
started on a project i want to complete, placing weatherboards. Went to building shop got some tools
came home and drill broke down on me then i fell over a bucket of water and it spilled all over power boards

I took my dog with me as i am training a seeing eye dog she is 11months she has been annoying
me for over a week now, been pissing me of she caused me to trip and fall over bucket. I felt like a drink because it is a nice day
i have been drinking pretty much every night since i stopped A/O to anonymous sex P PMO i feel bored.

Also Whilst at building shop or on the way back got a bit aroused by a stranger walking.
When i just got home i felt like looking at P so instead i thought i would post on my post and make it my journal.

 

[laalee]

So last night it was a warm night gets me going.  I Tried to M then looked at a bit of P but it didn't do anything for me is this normal now since re wiring?

 

[laalee]

I'm so lonely and bored tonight having a cpl beers but it and nothing fills that empty space deep inside me.
I hae tried to go online to date but that has not worked out for 6 years what do u do also as of late porn does not do anything for me anymore.  Do not even get excited by the thought of it as i know where it ends up.

Thanks just needed to vent share

 

[BuddhaAwake]

This is a great place to share and vent. Good luck in your recovery. I wish I had great words of wisdom for the issue you presented, but I'm struggling, too.