New guy to reboot/No PMO

[cerulean0987]

Hey guys, single 47 y/o gay man trying this out.  This is my second day PMO free.  I'm finding it a bit difficult getting my mind out of the gutter even in these forums with all the talk of erections, orgasms, etc.  The plus side is elsewhere, it is much easier to avoid images about attractive men everywhere else, since just about EVERY image is made to turn on a straight man.

So far, I think I started in a flatline, as some hypothesize may be the case in some men.  I have no urges, although I awoke with a 70% strong erection.  Morning wood is very rare.  I'm not treating any MW this early in the game as a sign of progress, especially because of no libido.

Though I expect my reboot to be longer than 90 days, this is my first goal.  The initial flatline is making it easier.  Getting rid of my porn collections was very hard (no pun intended).  I was so into porn, I actually made a tumblr account to distribute gay porn.  I've deleted all histories and bookmarks so it'd be more hard (though not really difficult) to get back onto these sites.  I may use a site blocker, just in case.  I used the day of erasing all my porn as day one, because looking at my porn collection was just unavoidable.

I wish there were more gay men to relate to and share experiences with in these forums.

 

[Needs Coffee]

Welcome!

I'm finding it a bit difficult getting my mind out of the gutter even in these forums with all the talk of erections, orgasms, etc.

Some of that just goes with the territory. When I decided to fight high blood pressure and cholesterol with diet and exercise, I spent a lot of time reading and researching all kinds of foods. After spending a lot of time obsessing over food, I'd learned enough and just lived with the required changes. Having said that, I will admit that some journals I just don't follow because there's not as much there that I consider "recovery" and a little too much that drift toward "triggers." And I'm usually not online at this time of night, since it's too close to my old PMO routine online time.

Anyway, keep your goals in mind, visualize the benefits of beating (no pun intended) PMO, the things you want to accomplish. This battle may be long and hard (okay, now that was an unacceptable pun), but it's a battle you can and have every reason to want to win.

I wish there were more gay men to relate to and share experiences with in these forums.

Consider yourself among the trailblazers! You can be an inspiration to others.

Much of your recovery will probably be similar. If you're comfortable sharing, how long have you been doing PMO? Have you had PIED?

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