Starting Reboot.

[Vardan]

Thanks guys,

Mikel, yes man, I try my best to get rid of the dating sites but I think it is even more important to replace them with the real dates/meetings.

today is the second day running, feeling ok,
very busy at work, (I have got the job btw )
so during the week I have no time/energy for PMO
lately almost always my relapses were on weekends.

will be doing some sport now and meet new people.
very excited!

 

[Mikel]

Good work with the job Vardan and also nice to hear you're meeting new people.

Getting yourself out there will help tremendously. Hopefully you will feel like a King.

 

[Vardan]

Relapse again
Too mich stress at work, busy week, no sport today....etc.
I Will start from 0 again
My Ac. partner is not in the forum now, I am thinking to find a new one...
Not a nice feeling to start everything all over again, but staying in this will be much worse.
Will try to be.more active in forum

 

[Vardan]

OK back to the Reboot again, actually from 28 of May.
During this time (before 28 May)had some good weeks, and some terrible days, when I would relapse several time a day (up to 4)
First two weeks of reboot went quite smoothly, I almost did not notice them
third week got a bit harder but what is now is just terrible.
I have all kind of withdrawel symptoms: depressive thoughts, can t sleep well, very negative at work and at home,headache,sexual thoughts,...
only thing that helps and keeps up is Sport: fitness is really a way out for me now...
this kind of hard symptoms I did not experience before, in November when I started my first reboot.
Would like to go with an AP...Let me know if someone is interested...

 

[PE30]

Hey, I've had a read of your journal. I notice that I responded to you back in the autumn of last year!

Okay, I'll AP you. I see you're nearly a month into your reboot, that's great news. I'm nearly three weeks into mine and need a good deal of motivation to get through the next three!

Question: what are your goals for this reboot?

 

[Vardan]

oh cool, I did not notice it...
Yesterday was very hard, and I MO...
my goal is actually no P and no MO at all...
so I will go with my rebooting like normal (30 days without P) and will start new count for MO...(so first day today)
there is still difference when I MO without P, but I feel that it is very important that I go through 90 days without anything at all...

have a very strange withdrawal symptoms: I don t want to eat, want to drink much more than normal, but no desire for food.
also the staff I like, for example ice-cream, I can t eat and don t  want to eat...it is very strange....
the only place where I feel myself good is fitness studio...
today had more motivation at work, lets  see what brings tomorrow...