My Journal... Walk in freedom

filozofio

Member
Doing well, but unable to set a tracker...

The rest is being easy so far. A book authored by Brian Brandenburg is helping a lot.
 

Oneway

Active Member
Hi filozofio and welcome to the forum. Being 30+ days free from pmo is a great accomplishment.

You should be able to set up a counter by clicking someones counter and then clicking the button 'Make a new tracker for me'. Then just follow instructions. You need a google account to accomplish the task. To make tracker visible in your messages add link to it to the Signature box of your RN-profile.
 

filozofio

Member
Thank you for your message...

I get to the page: "Make a new tracker for me". Then it asks me for my google account. I use it. And then comes the blank page... Always so.
 

filozofio

Member
It says something like "we know that there is a problem creating new trackers... please be patient". So it seems to be a general problem. Thank you for your posts... I will be patient... May be part of the recovery ;D
 

filozofio

Member
Another day free... and feeling good. Not much akward feelings, or flatline, or stress. So far, it is being quite easy. Yes some new feelings, ability to feel more the distress, but nothing dramatic.
 

filozofio

Member
Happy to be free. I have installed a counter in my phone. The counter here seems not to work.

It is exactly 37 days.
 

filozofio

Member
Feeling good. The course (book) Power over Pornography is coming to and end. Is has been a great help, practical for the re-wiring issue, and I am sharing it with other person.

Morning wood is back, insistently back...
 

filozofio

Member
Other day in freedom. Really, the Power over Pornography course is very helpful.

My relationship with God is like never before. And a deep happiness.

Wonderful walk.
 

filozofio

Member
Today I begun to see a stupid film, war film. In the middle of the war film, a girl shows her breasts. It was only for a second, no more, but I was excited. I stopped viewing  the film. I don't think it was viewing pornography, and it was only a second. I will left my counter continue to count. But I also recognize that this can be a trigger, and I have to be coutious.

In the future, I will select films carefully.
 

Oneway

Active Member
There will always be unexpected triggers and we just need to learn to live with them. I think you handled the situation really well. You felt the buzz but turned away. Well done!
 

filozofio

Member
Thank you for your feedback!!!

I am learning more about how to handle the temptations. After the first reaction, I thought that the method is not to suppress the temptation, or substitute it for other thing (like a good video, christian music, or whatever). I have to face the temptation. If not, the temptation will come back.

What I now do is:
1. Recognize the temptation. I want to see this...
2. Accept the temptation. Is OK, is normal...
3. Remember my freedom. I can chose, in this instance (not in others in the future).
4. I chose my vision of myself, free and changed person, and I develop the vision a bit.

This is what I have learned in the course I mentioned above, and it is really working. In the past, I would experience some victory, but the temptation would have remained there, in my brain, lurking, and I would have begun to approach it, slowly, but feeling worse, and worse.

Now, as I recall my freedom and my vision, I am able to really experience a victory over the temptation. It does not come back, because my desires change, and are oriented towards my vision.

I am grateful for that.
 
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