Hey everybody, I'm going to try to start a journal correctly here. It's probably not going to have all the relevant info since this is my first real post. Critique it if need be, I'm all ears.
My name is Michael and I'm a 26 year old porn addict. I've been looking at porn for TOO LONG, since about age 12. I've known I've had a problem with porn addiction for quite sometime but it's obviously not the easiest thing to quit. I 100% have porn related ED, porn can give me a hard on instantly but real interaction with a girl can be difficult, if at all. I started progressing from "normal" heterosexual porn to tranny porn and fetishes which was a red flag for me as well. Thankfully I saw that can be a common problem, whew, that was a relief.
Some triggers of mine: stress, bad day at work, boredom. PMO'ng makes me feel better so it's easy to fall into.
I ran across this site about a month to two months ago and read some of the forums, articles etc. and it really inspired me. I tried rebooting a couple times and at first it was only like 5 days before I failed. The uncomfortable feeling, not clearly avoiding my triggers were some issues. When I would PMO I feel great for about a minute then hate myself right after for giving in, and feeling like I just wasted those "x" amount of days. What leads me to post for the first time is I just PMO'd after a 14 day streak that I was really proud of. I had urges and cravings but I knew quitting was important so I just shoved them down. Today was a weak point for me and I still feel depressed with a lack of motivation or desire to try again tomorrow. Anybody have any pointers or advice?
Again sorry for the sloppy post, and if I broke any rules. Thanks for listening.
-Michael
My name is Michael and I'm a 26 year old porn addict. I've been looking at porn for TOO LONG, since about age 12. I've known I've had a problem with porn addiction for quite sometime but it's obviously not the easiest thing to quit. I 100% have porn related ED, porn can give me a hard on instantly but real interaction with a girl can be difficult, if at all. I started progressing from "normal" heterosexual porn to tranny porn and fetishes which was a red flag for me as well. Thankfully I saw that can be a common problem, whew, that was a relief.
Some triggers of mine: stress, bad day at work, boredom. PMO'ng makes me feel better so it's easy to fall into.
I ran across this site about a month to two months ago and read some of the forums, articles etc. and it really inspired me. I tried rebooting a couple times and at first it was only like 5 days before I failed. The uncomfortable feeling, not clearly avoiding my triggers were some issues. When I would PMO I feel great for about a minute then hate myself right after for giving in, and feeling like I just wasted those "x" amount of days. What leads me to post for the first time is I just PMO'd after a 14 day streak that I was really proud of. I had urges and cravings but I knew quitting was important so I just shoved them down. Today was a weak point for me and I still feel depressed with a lack of motivation or desire to try again tomorrow. Anybody have any pointers or advice?
Again sorry for the sloppy post, and if I broke any rules. Thanks for listening.
-Michael