Monica

[svo_Eddie]

I'm not very familiar to this type of scene or background if you will. But I'd like to state that my name is Eddie (Rodriguez), I'm 17 years old, I'm in my senior year of high school, and I'm addicted to masturbating. Masturbating has corrupted my point of view on things, and I have these "urges" that hust come out of nowhere. Yes I occasionally do watch porn but not ever day or week. I have a girlfriend, who I love so dearly, but I've cheated on her with my ex due to the fact that my girlfriend is still a virgin and isn't ready for that type of commitment yet, which I totally understand, I have no right or authority to force her into having sex with me. But I walked home with my ex a few times (my girlfriend lives on the other side of town, and my ex and I live in the same neighborhood) so we were walking home and it was hot and she wanted some water and wanted to lay down, so she laid in my room and I got her a cold glass of water. I then had this urge to have sex with her again because it's been a while and I got bored of touching myself. So I suppose I peer pressured her into having sex with me, and her knowing that I'm in a relationship. My ex and I dated for 3 years until I cheated on her due to the fact I had sex with another girl, just because my ex couldn't come over. So I've cjeated on my ex, and now I'm cheating on my current girlfriend with my wx that I cheated on. Pretty sick right. I despise myself, I tell myself that I won't have sex with my ex but at that last moment I just give in and she lets me because she doesn't want to aggravate me just cause she won't let me have some "fun time". She wants me to be happy and have a healthy relationship with my girlfriend but when I ask for sex she doesn't say no because she's always liked to make me happy, so she let's me penetrate her so I won't be upset or sexually frustrated. I want to change that!