I'm sorry to hear about your relapse. I recently relapsed after 9 months. I can only speak from my own experience, but what I found was that after the initial slip, I found it easier and easier to rationalize going back to it and harder and harder to stay away from it. Now, I can't stay away for longer than a day or two. I realize that this isn't perhaps the most encouraging thing I could post, but I'm sharing on the hope that you learn from my experience and don't make the same mistake I did. Where I failed post-relapse: didn't tell anyone about it, isolated, expected that it would be just as easy to stop again as it was to stay stopped in the first place, didn't change my daily routine to accommodate recovery again... I'm just spitballing here. Of course, if I knew precisely what to do to get out of this quandary, I wouldn't still be in it.