VaughanBirbeck
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Free from PMO since 1 November and I feel so much has changed. My wife and I have had some really crappy times since I was caught out with my porn stash two weeks ago, but I have been honest, I have not hidden from my actions and their consequences. We have started seeing a relationship therapist and I am using hypnotherapy to curb P addiction.
This morning I found myself building a sex fantasy as I have so often done before, but it was about her - not some illusion in my head. I went ahead and acted on my thoughts and gave her an orgasm for the first time in God knows when. Not full sex yet, but a great start.
Now I am just watching myself for the 'chaser' effect, but I already told my wife I could easily MO after our experience but that I was not going to do it.
I know we still have a lot of healing to do and lost time to make up for, but I am so happy to be taking the right path at last. I hope and pray it can continue.
This morning I found myself building a sex fantasy as I have so often done before, but it was about her - not some illusion in my head. I went ahead and acted on my thoughts and gave her an orgasm for the first time in God knows when. Not full sex yet, but a great start.
Now I am just watching myself for the 'chaser' effect, but I already told my wife I could easily MO after our experience but that I was not going to do it.
I know we still have a lot of healing to do and lost time to make up for, but I am so happy to be taking the right path at last. I hope and pray it can continue.