You say you didn't look at porn? So you didn't actually PMO? You looked at models but none naked? Brother, if that is the case I would not consider that a relapse. I would consider that normal! We're forced to see women dressed half naked everywhere we look. The thing is you didn't view porn! As long as you don't view porn or any nudity you are still counting. Stay in reality and don't think you should ever experience anything sexual unless it is the real deal. As males with a sex drive, especially going through this process, our brain is going to recognize almost anything with a female to be potential pleasure. Whether it is a model in a magazine or pictures on the internet (non-nude) you will be turned on. In my opinion, that is a good thing. Also, your brain is going through this change and is trying to keep you happy by continuing to view women as pleasure. Yes, women are pleasuring but as long as we stay away from porn we are on the right path. The next step is how we view women as pleasure objects. That's what porn is about. Porn throws women in as objects for pleasure and viewing porn pushes our brains, unknowingly, to see that as well. Also, our brain will see anything sexual for a time period because we have gone without. During this phase the brain is wondering what in the world is going on and is trying to seek that intense pleasure, chemical reactions, by any means possible. As you continue to go without sexual activity the brain adapts and everything gets easier. Enjoy being turned on as it is normal but we have to control it and allow our brain/body to function properly. There are a lot of other brain balancing that will happen during this process. That is the unforeseen power we receive when we control ourselves. We benefit ourselves in other areas without knowing, it just takes TIME.
Going day-to-day is good. We have focus on today for tomorrow brings enough trouble. In my opinion, you should not sell yourself short and not set your goal for 30 days. Strive for greatness. Know it, expect it, conquer it! Know these feelings are going to happen, expect your emotions to run wild, and conquer them!! Never allow fear to dictate your actions!! As you continue you will experience a whirlwind of emotions at times. To me, it is like being in the eye of a tornado. You have all this chaos around you and you can feel it and you're at the center of it all. Better news is you are still in control. NOTHING can force to do anything. No matter what your brain is telling you or how your body is feeling there is nothing that can make you do anything except yourself.
I say be proud of yourself. If you didn't view porn I would not count that as a loss and start over. Keep pushing!!
