Hey all.
Survivor here.
Still doing pretty much okay. Like I mentioned a couple of days ago, I had some frustration and tried to zone away from it by masturbating without porn. Didn't work as I couldn't climax without the visual stimulation. Frustrating at the time but it passed and I had a good day. Glad I stayed away from the internet.
I had a very erotic dream last night. I realize that this stuff is still trying to find ways to drag me back into it and I also know from past experience that it will continue to raise it's ugly head in various ways at various times for quite some time to come. I don't know for sure but it might get more difficult before it gets better. Only time will tell. However, I also know from past experience that it does get better. The pull gradually gets less and less and the frequency of the pull also gets less and less. That is the point in time when I feel the addiction is more outside of me than inside me. I am not overcome with these cravings. That's good and bad at the same time. It's good because I am in a better position to make a rational, healthy choice. However, the bad part of it, for me, and the part that always takes me back, is this thought that I can return there just once and it would be great and that I'm in control and can choose to do it when it suits me. WRONGO! One visit and I'm fully sucked in again. No peeking!
Anyway, that time is still a little bit in the future and, with the help of you people I will deal with that situation when the time comes.
Good day to you all.
Survivor here.
Still doing pretty much okay. Like I mentioned a couple of days ago, I had some frustration and tried to zone away from it by masturbating without porn. Didn't work as I couldn't climax without the visual stimulation. Frustrating at the time but it passed and I had a good day. Glad I stayed away from the internet.
I had a very erotic dream last night. I realize that this stuff is still trying to find ways to drag me back into it and I also know from past experience that it will continue to raise it's ugly head in various ways at various times for quite some time to come. I don't know for sure but it might get more difficult before it gets better. Only time will tell. However, I also know from past experience that it does get better. The pull gradually gets less and less and the frequency of the pull also gets less and less. That is the point in time when I feel the addiction is more outside of me than inside me. I am not overcome with these cravings. That's good and bad at the same time. It's good because I am in a better position to make a rational, healthy choice. However, the bad part of it, for me, and the part that always takes me back, is this thought that I can return there just once and it would be great and that I'm in control and can choose to do it when it suits me. WRONGO! One visit and I'm fully sucked in again. No peeking!
Anyway, that time is still a little bit in the future and, with the help of you people I will deal with that situation when the time comes.
Good day to you all.