Hello guys,
I am back on the boat and managed to go 120+ days without PMO. However in that time I visited escorts several times to satisfy my desire for sex. I was no longer able to get it off with porn and porn did not even elicit an erection from me. Only real girls managed to do that, but I was not able to attract a compatible female due to my lack of a social circle. As of now I literally have no friends that I can get into physical touch since most of them are abroad.
After I broke up with my girlfriend I had maybe 2 potential girlfriends, yet I was not interested in the first one and the second one sort of ghosted on me again. Now I am struggling to get my master's degree since I extended the duration of my study after failing to defend my thesis on time. I really want to have a normal social life apart from girlfriend, but I cannot and I identify myself as loveshy.
These aside I have been pretty active physically: I went to gym and boxing regularly, enrolled in dance classes, participated in lots of dance nights. I also do one more sport regularly and I do not want to disclose it as it may serve as an identifier.
Sexually my performance has deprived to quite some extend: I can no longer get spontaneous erections, no more wetdreams, no more sensation from masturbation apart orgasm and when I orgasm very little cum comes. I am allergic to eggs and I cannot say I have a solid nutrition program so that may be the culprit. IMO stress is also a big factor in this; I feel like my penis will not ever work again and this drives me to doing crazy things.
I do not PMO anymore, yet I look at porn sometimes and hire escorts occasionally. I am afraid that I may be burning my money, inviting STDs and decreasing my reputation/career. I am in the middle of a vicious cycle and I started counselling with an expert on human sexuality. I would be keen to hear your opinions.
I am back on the boat and managed to go 120+ days without PMO. However in that time I visited escorts several times to satisfy my desire for sex. I was no longer able to get it off with porn and porn did not even elicit an erection from me. Only real girls managed to do that, but I was not able to attract a compatible female due to my lack of a social circle. As of now I literally have no friends that I can get into physical touch since most of them are abroad.
After I broke up with my girlfriend I had maybe 2 potential girlfriends, yet I was not interested in the first one and the second one sort of ghosted on me again. Now I am struggling to get my master's degree since I extended the duration of my study after failing to defend my thesis on time. I really want to have a normal social life apart from girlfriend, but I cannot and I identify myself as loveshy.
These aside I have been pretty active physically: I went to gym and boxing regularly, enrolled in dance classes, participated in lots of dance nights. I also do one more sport regularly and I do not want to disclose it as it may serve as an identifier.
Sexually my performance has deprived to quite some extend: I can no longer get spontaneous erections, no more wetdreams, no more sensation from masturbation apart orgasm and when I orgasm very little cum comes. I am allergic to eggs and I cannot say I have a solid nutrition program so that may be the culprit. IMO stress is also a big factor in this; I feel like my penis will not ever work again and this drives me to doing crazy things.
I do not PMO anymore, yet I look at porn sometimes and hire escorts occasionally. I am afraid that I may be burning my money, inviting STDs and decreasing my reputation/career. I am in the middle of a vicious cycle and I started counselling with an expert on human sexuality. I would be keen to hear your opinions.