Female - lost my O from porn & vibrators

[Hope1]

It took me a while to realize what I'd done to myself. I thought I was liberated, loved sex, loved porn. But gradually it became harder to come both with men and even alone. I've been off porn and vibrators for over a month now.  I still don't have my old response back. I do still feel tremendous desire though, so I'm hopeful that it will return. I get turned on, but then don't achieve the high I used to get, sometimes multiple times. I'm also not completely off fantasies when I'm with my boyfriend, so I'm not sure if that's ok or not. Would love to hear about any similar stories. Feeling less depressed than I was, but still scared. I don't want to live without good sex. 

 

[InTheWeeds]

Hope

First congratulations on a month progress. I'm a guy so my advice is from the gender prospective but I believe my experience may help. I am PMO free for 63 days and it's only in the last week or so that I have that old "get up and go" feeling. It took awhile for the healing to take place. We are all different and sometimes it can take longer for one and not for another. You have to stay the course. It's worth it. My wife and I are regaining that original spontaneous ability we had lost, or I should say, I had lost due to porn. The numb feeling would prevent the ability to perform. In my case it meant loosing the erection way before any feeling happened.
So, patience is the key. Be gentle with yourself. Your brain is screwed up and is healing. It takes some time. You will get there.
Day by day.

 

[Hope1]

Thanks, it's been over a month now, and I really appreciate the reply. I don't want to get discouraged. But I also am a bit frustrated because I want more exciting sex than my boyfriend wants. He doesn't like me to ask for things. I have to beg or try to figure out ways to get him to do things without asking. I would like more excitement. I do have another man in my life and I am thinking of turning to him to see if that helps my sexuality return.