Survivor here.
Still clean and not feeling any strong pull at the moment but I know that right now I need to keep close to all of you. It's too easy to lull myself into believing I've got this under control and don't need to make connection anymore. What happens is I gradually isolate more and more, get smug in the belief that I can control it this time and then get drawn into having 'just a peek'. Just a peek is never just a peek. It always leads to full blown masturbation and a constant craving for more.
Besides, I know that I would then be trying to keep it secret from my wife, which always eventually ends in failure as she is too smart to be fooled. Then I gotta 'fess up' once again and experience all the disappointment, guilt and sense of failure that comes with it. Additionally, I'd only have to start again and go through all the stages that I've already put behind me this go around.
I need to remind myself on a regular basis that taking that one peek is not worth the far reaching consequences that come as a result. There is an old 'AA' phrase that is quite applicable here. "One drink (peek) is too many and ten is not enough." So true.
Adios amigos. Stay strong.
Still clean and not feeling any strong pull at the moment but I know that right now I need to keep close to all of you. It's too easy to lull myself into believing I've got this under control and don't need to make connection anymore. What happens is I gradually isolate more and more, get smug in the belief that I can control it this time and then get drawn into having 'just a peek'. Just a peek is never just a peek. It always leads to full blown masturbation and a constant craving for more.
Besides, I know that I would then be trying to keep it secret from my wife, which always eventually ends in failure as she is too smart to be fooled. Then I gotta 'fess up' once again and experience all the disappointment, guilt and sense of failure that comes with it. Additionally, I'd only have to start again and go through all the stages that I've already put behind me this go around.
I need to remind myself on a regular basis that taking that one peek is not worth the far reaching consequences that come as a result. There is an old 'AA' phrase that is quite applicable here. "One drink (peek) is too many and ten is not enough." So true.
Adios amigos. Stay strong.