Lauralou82
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Some of you will have read my previous posts but a quick re-cap.
My partner has has ED and DE that was apparent to me from about a month into our relationship ( the DE from the beginning - you can't help but notice someone hammering into you without being present and just trying to cum) I eventually began to suspect PIED and masturbation as the cause after months of worrying about his physical health... To the point where I was scared to tears his body was saying there was something life threatening going on. I still feel upset that he allowed me to panic about his health when he has admitted that deep down he kind of knew what the problem was.
Anyway - he swears that he has neither "sorted himself out" nor looked at porn since I caught him a couple of days before new year.
We've had sex 3 times since and each time there is a massive hurdle to get him to engage with me - he really holds back but I noticed last night that the mention of me going down on him quickly got his attention (so he's still being very selfish) the main thing I've noticed is that the ED has dramatically reduced and last night DE was definitely not a problem.... Is this his body beginning to respond? I'm guessing the next thing in the post will be flatline when his body/brain genuinely does start to reboot/rewire. Guess I'm just hoping that he starts being more attentive and reinforces his rewiring by being more loving towards me.
His moods have definitely improved towards me but they are very subject to change - a lot like mood swings..... There are very obvious waves of resentment there.
He did say with each success that he feels less anxious about performance - which is why I'm worried that when the flatline hits he's going to withdraw completely. I wish he'd do some research so he knew what I know .
It really does hurt to know that he has someone to love him despite all this yet he shows no appreciation of that..... I know I won't cope long term with the selfishness. Does it get better?
My partner has has ED and DE that was apparent to me from about a month into our relationship ( the DE from the beginning - you can't help but notice someone hammering into you without being present and just trying to cum) I eventually began to suspect PIED and masturbation as the cause after months of worrying about his physical health... To the point where I was scared to tears his body was saying there was something life threatening going on. I still feel upset that he allowed me to panic about his health when he has admitted that deep down he kind of knew what the problem was.
Anyway - he swears that he has neither "sorted himself out" nor looked at porn since I caught him a couple of days before new year.
We've had sex 3 times since and each time there is a massive hurdle to get him to engage with me - he really holds back but I noticed last night that the mention of me going down on him quickly got his attention (so he's still being very selfish) the main thing I've noticed is that the ED has dramatically reduced and last night DE was definitely not a problem.... Is this his body beginning to respond? I'm guessing the next thing in the post will be flatline when his body/brain genuinely does start to reboot/rewire. Guess I'm just hoping that he starts being more attentive and reinforces his rewiring by being more loving towards me.
His moods have definitely improved towards me but they are very subject to change - a lot like mood swings..... There are very obvious waves of resentment there.
He did say with each success that he feels less anxious about performance - which is why I'm worried that when the flatline hits he's going to withdraw completely. I wish he'd do some research so he knew what I know .
It really does hurt to know that he has someone to love him despite all this yet he shows no appreciation of that..... I know I won't cope long term with the selfishness. Does it get better?