From today and onward [25 years old]

[life_without_porn]

Hello! Thanks for clicking this thread.

I am 25 years old and I, from now on, strive to live a life without porn. Porn is like the sweetener in my coffee that has gone sour. It's like something without taste, scent and emotion. It's just a routine I do. I know what pages to visit, I know where to click and what to search for. It's a habit that never seems to die and that I always seem to come back to.

It's not that I think porn is tearing my life apart. No, I enjoy life and many, many of it's moments. And I enjoy porn too, from time to time. I don't expect getting off porn will get me any particular benefits.

So why stop? Could I ever stop? I don't know if I ever could. There are times when I just want to see someone else rather than my girlfriend. I just want to experience the world of sexual fantasy and over-the-top stuff. Times when I just want to see what particular big butt looks like (I like that kind of thing) or the perfect shemale (the one I never seem to find, cause they all really just look like dudes).

And when exams are stressing me out, when me and my girlfriend are fighting... I turn to porn all the time. It comforts me. It tells me not to take life too seriously. It tells me to relax and just enjoy myself.


;D 8) ??? : :-[ :-X :-\ :-* :'( This is how I feel when I think about porn. It's a mixed bag of emotions.

I over-use porn, to the point where I think it is boring. Happens time and time again. Is there a way for me to enjoy this shit responsibly? To enjoy it once in a while? It does not seem to be that way.

No... I know it... finally... the point is this:
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[*]Porn leaves me feeling a little dead inside. This is the case all the time.
[*]Porn makes me less attracted to my girlfriend... and girls in general for that matter.
[*]Porn is boring. Sure, the quick dopamine rush you get when you haven't seen it in a while. Yes it is great! And some sessions are truly great! But I have had all those sessions. I have seen it all. All sorts of porn imaginable I have seen it. And when I have seen it for a while, it does not impress me anymore. It just bores me. Been there done that so to say.
[*]Porn makes me a little uneasy when I am around other people. It's hard to explain and it does not last terribly long. But I don't like the feeling.
[*]Porn is staling my emotional progress in a way. If I were to solve my anxiety issues without porn, I'm sure I would get further.
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Thanks for listening. I will return to document my struggle, both on how it feels and where it leads me.

 

[Absalom]

Hello! Thanks for clicking this thread.

I am 25 years old and I, from now on, strive to live a life without porn. Porn is like the sweetener in my coffee that has gone sour. It's like something without taste, scent and emotion. It's just a routine I do. I know what pages to visit, I know where to click and what to search for. It's a habit that never seems to die and that I always seem to come back to.

It's not that I think porn is tearing my life apart. No, I enjoy life and many, many of it's moments. And I enjoy porn too, from time to time. I don't except getting off porn will get me any particular benefits.

So why stop? Could I ever stop? I don't know if I ever could. There are times when I just want to see someone else rather than my girlfriend. I just want to experience the world of sexual fantasy and over-the-top stuff. Times when I just want to see what particular big butt looks like (I like that kind of thing) or the perfect shemale (the one I never seem to find, cause they all really just look like dudes).

And when exams are stressing me out, when me and my girlfriend are fighting... I turn to porn all the time. It comforts me. It tells me not to take life too seriously. It tells me to relax and just enjoy myself.


;D 8) ??? : :-[ :-X :-\ :-* :'( This is how I feel when I think about porn. It's a mixed bag of emotions.

I over-use porn, to the point where I think it is boring. Happens time and time again. Is there a way for me to enjoy this shit responsibly? To enjoy it once in a while? It does not seem to be that way.

No... I know it... finally... the point is this:
[list type=decimal]
[*]Porn leaves me feeling a little dead inside. This is the case all the time.
[*]Porn makes me less attracted to my girlfriend... and girls in general for that matter.
[*]Porn is boring. Sure, the quick dopamine rush you get when you haven't seen it in a while. Yes it is great! And some sessions are truly great! But I have had all those sessions. I have seen it all. All sorts of porn imaginable I have seen it. And when I have seen it for a while, it does not impress me anymore. It just bores me. Been there done that so to say.
[*]Porn makes me a little uneasy when I am around other people. It's hard to explain and it does not last terribly long. But I don't like the feeling.
[*]Porn is staling my emotional progress in a way. If I were to solve my anxiety issues without porn, I'm sure I would get further.
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Thanks for listening. I will return to document my struggle, both on how it feels and where it leads me.

It's good that you're addressing this problem. You say that you don't expect to see much benefit in particular from quitting P. You also say that you've progressed to shemale porn. Escalating to shemale P is a very strong sign of addiction, so I doubt you could have progressed this far without seeing some neurological drawbacks. Don't be surprised if you feel much better after quitting.

Good luck.

 

[life_without_porn]

It's good that you're addressing this problem. You say that you don't expect to see much benefit in particular from quitting P. You also say that you've progressed to shemale porn. Escalating to shemale P is a very strong sign of addiction, so I doubt you could have progressed this far without seeing some neurological drawbacks. Don't be surprised if you feel much better after quitting.

Good luck.

The 5 points I told of probably has some drawbacks, especially compounded over time.
I don't know whether to call them psychological or neurological. I'll stick to psychological because I don't really know the meaning of neurological.

Honestly, my life is pretty good and I feel pretty good. I am quite content. It's not like I can never abstain and be around other people. It's not like I feel gloomy or ashamed after ejaculating.

I think that your outlook on life very much defines it's quality. Whatever circumstances is not of as great importance. Even Viktor Frankl could find some sort of meaning in the harshest of conditions, and watching porn (although excessively) is nowhere close to that.

That's why I don't expect any overly positive benefits. Though I still wish to quit, as I am looking forward to better real life sex. Looking forward to having one less thing worrying about. Any effects taking place though, I will be sure to post them here, along with the cravings.

Thank you.

 

[life_without_porn]

If I hadn't made this promise, to stop watching porn, I had already been watching porn twice now.
The excruciating pain I feel when I think about future events and how they will play out.
When I think about how I will solve my housing and relationship issues. Whatever issues I come to think of.
It makes me want to flee. It makes me want to disconnect my brain. It makes me want to type in those certain websites that I know of.
But I have made this commitment. I will not watch porn. And it's is no biggie. I will make it this time. I am just checking in to give you guys an update, since this is my journal.

 

[life_without_porn]

I was really really close to watching porn again... But guess what! I didn't do it. 8 days and rolling.
I really thought hard about it. Then I looked at my counter and figured out the whole reason I do this.
It is so that I can be able to face my life without constantly escaping whenever things are tough.
I'd rather stay conscious than numbing my fears with porn.

I will always reset my counter before watching porn and never after. Good Luck to all of you!

 

[benjaminnn]

You are doing amazing...like with many addictions the first few days are the toughest...you have already made the biggest step. Don't look back!!! Your future is bright