back2basics
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Hi,
About a year ago in 2016 I admitted to myself that I was addicted to porn.
Something was just off, you know. I'd be jerking it and I'd notice my thing wasn't as hard as it should be, or that the stuff I was watching I wasn't even attracted to, and it all just felt wrong. It's like I was doing it just for the sake of doing it-and I think that best describes my masturbation cycle from that point prior. I would do it before sleep, as a way to decompress after a long day, and before long I noticed I couldn't fall asleep without it. An addiction. It's not that I wanted to, it's that I had to.
I decided to own up to this and face the addiction. My previous sexual encounters told me that my erectile health was not where it should be for a teenager/twenty something and I was beginning to worry more and more about the next time I'd have sex and whether or not I'd be able to perform. So, I took it upon myself to fix my problem. I began reading this site, and actually, took on the challenge quite passionately. After all, why wouldn't I want to experience a natural, healthy erection again?
The days came and went. At first I had trouble sleeping, then it was the withdrawals kicking in and the constant begging for porn, but somehow, I occupied myself and dealt with all of this in a satisfactory manner. Then the flatline hit. It actually came quite early on, but I wasn't ready for it. I became very depressed, lonely, and my penis felt dead. Nothing could wake it and I noticed that I wouldn't have morning erections either. I waited and waited, without any PMO whatsoever, began talking to girls and smooching and getting a feel for the natural way of things again (as per the recommendation of the site) and one day it happened. I got the greatest erection I've ever gotten. We're talking throbbing, rip through your pants, and eternal. Finally, the sign that I had been waiting for came and I knew that not only was my addiction confirmed, but progress was being made. I started getting better erections (although not as good as this first one) and continued with the cycle. It got to the point where I was making-out with someone and my erection was so nice that just the friction between it and my jeans was enough to make me O. Most people would find that situation incredibly embarrassing, but I was so happy at my progress that I saw it as nothing but a positive thing. Granted I never saw that girl again, but hey, my member was getting prepped for the next one.
Then it happened. In a world where sex is everywhere, it was only a matter of time before seeing something shared via a friend on a Facebook feed. Yep, and it was one of those videos. So I relapsed to some soft pictures but it was a relapse nonetheless. Then the old habit kicked in hard and I spent the next week PMOing like crazy. Then a few days later I met the person that would later become my girlfriend, and from then on, the Os never stopped. She was my first girlfriend and fell for her immediately so i couldn't say no to getting into a relationship, but I did very well in not watching any porn after my relapse. Like I said the Os never stopped but at least it was real sex I was experiencing. However, after this relapse, I did notice that I fell into a bit of another flatline and had difficulty getting it up during the beginning. For the rest of the relationship, I did not masturbate or watch porn (just a few relapses 7/8 months later, usually just a one time thing) and saw my erectile health improve once again, but not fully.
It's now 2017 and the relationship has come and gone. While I was able to recover slightly again from the initial relapse (my erections during my relationship did get better, got a few spontaneous, natural ones that made sex more possible/enjoyable too), I haven't gotten an erection as good as the one I experienced during my first no PMO trial. I have been wanting to start the new year free of PMO but there have been a few instances of P and some of M (barely together). I'm deciding to start again.
Here's where I stand:
I tried 90 days of no PMO and failed maybe halfway through, but saw great, promising results.
Slight recovery was seen as I ditched P for the duration of a relationship, but constant Os meant that I never actually took this as a rewiring, especially since I would sometimes struggle with getting it up.
Now it's time to start again. I've joined the forum for encouragement and to encourage (results do come!) and because I crave to have an erection like the aforementioned one again. I'm on day 3 of no PMO and I want to make it to 90 days without porn, masturbation, or orgasm. In fact, I will make it 90 days.
New 90 no PMO trial:
Day 3
I may be in flatline again. My organ feels useless.
Not depressed.
3 month plan:
1st month: complete no PMO. Find ways to spend time. Eat well, focus on internal health. Get back to exercising.
2nd month: complete no PMO + continue healthy habits + start approaching women in hopes of rewiring to real intimacy.
3rd month: complete no PMO + continue healthy habits + approach women + start smooching + get ready for sex after 90 days.
Good luck to you all, may we beat this thing once and for all.
Cheers!
b2b
About a year ago in 2016 I admitted to myself that I was addicted to porn.
Something was just off, you know. I'd be jerking it and I'd notice my thing wasn't as hard as it should be, or that the stuff I was watching I wasn't even attracted to, and it all just felt wrong. It's like I was doing it just for the sake of doing it-and I think that best describes my masturbation cycle from that point prior. I would do it before sleep, as a way to decompress after a long day, and before long I noticed I couldn't fall asleep without it. An addiction. It's not that I wanted to, it's that I had to.
I decided to own up to this and face the addiction. My previous sexual encounters told me that my erectile health was not where it should be for a teenager/twenty something and I was beginning to worry more and more about the next time I'd have sex and whether or not I'd be able to perform. So, I took it upon myself to fix my problem. I began reading this site, and actually, took on the challenge quite passionately. After all, why wouldn't I want to experience a natural, healthy erection again?
The days came and went. At first I had trouble sleeping, then it was the withdrawals kicking in and the constant begging for porn, but somehow, I occupied myself and dealt with all of this in a satisfactory manner. Then the flatline hit. It actually came quite early on, but I wasn't ready for it. I became very depressed, lonely, and my penis felt dead. Nothing could wake it and I noticed that I wouldn't have morning erections either. I waited and waited, without any PMO whatsoever, began talking to girls and smooching and getting a feel for the natural way of things again (as per the recommendation of the site) and one day it happened. I got the greatest erection I've ever gotten. We're talking throbbing, rip through your pants, and eternal. Finally, the sign that I had been waiting for came and I knew that not only was my addiction confirmed, but progress was being made. I started getting better erections (although not as good as this first one) and continued with the cycle. It got to the point where I was making-out with someone and my erection was so nice that just the friction between it and my jeans was enough to make me O. Most people would find that situation incredibly embarrassing, but I was so happy at my progress that I saw it as nothing but a positive thing. Granted I never saw that girl again, but hey, my member was getting prepped for the next one.
Then it happened. In a world where sex is everywhere, it was only a matter of time before seeing something shared via a friend on a Facebook feed. Yep, and it was one of those videos. So I relapsed to some soft pictures but it was a relapse nonetheless. Then the old habit kicked in hard and I spent the next week PMOing like crazy. Then a few days later I met the person that would later become my girlfriend, and from then on, the Os never stopped. She was my first girlfriend and fell for her immediately so i couldn't say no to getting into a relationship, but I did very well in not watching any porn after my relapse. Like I said the Os never stopped but at least it was real sex I was experiencing. However, after this relapse, I did notice that I fell into a bit of another flatline and had difficulty getting it up during the beginning. For the rest of the relationship, I did not masturbate or watch porn (just a few relapses 7/8 months later, usually just a one time thing) and saw my erectile health improve once again, but not fully.
It's now 2017 and the relationship has come and gone. While I was able to recover slightly again from the initial relapse (my erections during my relationship did get better, got a few spontaneous, natural ones that made sex more possible/enjoyable too), I haven't gotten an erection as good as the one I experienced during my first no PMO trial. I have been wanting to start the new year free of PMO but there have been a few instances of P and some of M (barely together). I'm deciding to start again.
Here's where I stand:
I tried 90 days of no PMO and failed maybe halfway through, but saw great, promising results.
Slight recovery was seen as I ditched P for the duration of a relationship, but constant Os meant that I never actually took this as a rewiring, especially since I would sometimes struggle with getting it up.
Now it's time to start again. I've joined the forum for encouragement and to encourage (results do come!) and because I crave to have an erection like the aforementioned one again. I'm on day 3 of no PMO and I want to make it to 90 days without porn, masturbation, or orgasm. In fact, I will make it 90 days.
New 90 no PMO trial:
Day 3
I may be in flatline again. My organ feels useless.
Not depressed.
3 month plan:
1st month: complete no PMO. Find ways to spend time. Eat well, focus on internal health. Get back to exercising.
2nd month: complete no PMO + continue healthy habits + start approaching women in hopes of rewiring to real intimacy.
3rd month: complete no PMO + continue healthy habits + approach women + start smooching + get ready for sex after 90 days.
Good luck to you all, may we beat this thing once and for all.
Cheers!
b2b