depression masked by porn addiction

[aboodos94]

hi all i think i understand now that i have depression due to overuse of internet or internet addiction mostly caused my depression and also the stresses of studying medicine and it never ends but in order for me to get cured of this nightmare I should stop internet addiction and start socializing but the problem is I am noob at socializing I don't have friends internet was my only friend and porn was the other I don't know how to talk with people or open interesting subjects I am not good at being social
the second thing is doing intermittent exercise and how that can be done
please guys help me I am sick of not being able to feel pleasure in my life even porn became tasteless to me and even watching my favorite tv shows , movies , anime became tasteless unenjoyable i feel i don't fit in this society

 

[JediMaster]

I can relate to that depression. Before I was with my partner my life consisted of constantly failing community college courses, working, going out with friends occasionally and mostly playing computer games. I would be fine if when I was home, my friends were online on steam and I could play something with them. Some of them were in the UK and i'm in the US so that was sometimes difficult for them to be on when I was and my best friend that i live close to was always busy with classes. I'd spend my days off of work sitting at my computer thinking "I'll see what people are up to soon" and next thing I know the sun is down and I wasted the day. I usually only POM'd before bed and when I woke up and that was the minimum I'd ever do it. Some days would be worse with 3 or 4 times a day. I was doing it at least twice a day every day for as long as I can Remember, maybe about 8 years? I was addicted for 10 to 12, I'm not exactly sure when it started. I knew i wasn't happy but I didn't know the extent. I didn't know that it was feeding a huge cycle with constant depression.

I've been off of P for about 7.5 months and I spend most of my time with my partner which I love so I don't have the problem of feeling so lonely and I've never been good at socializing either so I'm not much help there :/. However, having a hobby can really help. I love everything about cars. I want to fix them, work on my own, improve my own and study more about them. I love to play guitar, I do parkour. Hobbies really help fill your time creatively and since p kills creativity and can really help with recovery.

Do you have any hobbies or activities that you really enjoy doing besides tv and anime? Something that gets you active or creative? Getting outside can be good too.

 

[aboodos94]

probably one of my hobbies is to walk before sunset I used to like the view of the sky during the sunset I like swimming also and I like to talk to people but the problem is I don't know how to grab their attention I do suck at that even if I talk with ordinary people I do lack this kind of skill I don't know what should i do.

 

[JediMaster]

I'm not very socially skilled either. D o you have any acquaintances that you can hangout with? I don't Know if you're old enough but maybe go to a bar with someone you know or go by yourself. It might be a good idea to google things to say to start a conversation. With anybody really, they love to talk about themselves so any questions that are open ended are good. I would search on the most polite gentlemanly ways to start conversations. That and coffee shops can be good. I know people don't like to be bothered but maybe if they're doing something like drawing a compliment can be a good way to start a conversation.