MO to gay porn. after 19 days no pmo!!

[goodvibes144]

Ive been fightng with this thing since 2014 ... I began  just watching regular porn than it led to  different categories on the website  like DT 2 and 1  p**** hole , lesbian,  and the gay.  Which I've  been fighting for two years now. I HATE that I get turn on by it..  It ruins my self esteem I can't even get with girls I want because I believe I'm living a lie!!!  Everytime I watch gay porn  my climax is stronger but I feel equally horrible after like  I would have never been interested in it!!  I just really need help.  I was going so strong and I relapsed.  Anyone have pointers or something that can help me...  Let me know if you are dealing with this also please COMMENT BELOW !!!

 

[AggieB]

I'm new to the site. This is exactly what has happened to me.  I was so embarrassed and ashamed of where I had ended up.  I remember when I first clicked on the gay porn and climaxed I was mad at myself and concerned that I was interested in guys.  I did a lot of reflection and came to the realization, I'm not interested at all at performing the acts with a guy, I'm just shocked by the novelty of it.  Once I rationalized to that point, I started realizing I had a porn problem. I'm two days clean which is a pretty big deal for me.  It's reassuring to see someone else had the gay porn situation.  Good luck brother.

 

[enzomartins]

This is called HOCD, read more about it.
In my days of Porn Addiction I think I had a mild HOCD. I had fake profiles of men to lure women, and I actively searched for naked men photos, big dicks, etc, and also webcam videos to fake conversations with women and get nudes from them. But I think I started enjoying the naked men photos/videos, I found exciting, I envied those guys.
After my reboot, I have now ZERO interest in men. I love women and feel extremely attracted by them.

 

[goodvibes144]

Thank you guys you just encouraged me to start the reboot...  It's like I'll get the urge watch straight porn then end up in gay thank you so much!!!