2017 let's reboot

[IamAman]

Hey guys,

My longest record so far is 44 days. That ended mid last year when I got told I was up for redundancy (I found a new job but had the worst fortnight of my life). Anyway I am back on it now. It's been about 6 days so far but for simplicity I am gonna count myself as starting on February 1st (easier to work out days and months).

As well as being on NoFap I have started sorting my money management, well this is about month 3 (no more getting paid and being skint after impulse buying).

I'm also doing some confidence training (Skype calls with NLP practitioners and hypnotists to sort a few issues).

However today has been emotional (I went through this on my 44 day streak but not so soon). I went to town today for some essentials and ended up having a 20 min chat with a blonde shop assistant. Once upon a time I would of classed her as out of my league. Tonight I have realised that I have never really been rejected just scared, too scared to do anything. I have had this dice childhood and for whatever reason a lot of memories have replayed in my mind that I classed ascrejection. And this has reduced me to tears.

I hope this phase of nofap passes soon, although I feel like a new man, and to be honest it's good to have tears in my eyes, I feel I have missed out on a lot in life due to porn and masterbation.

Anyway hope you all succeed in what it is you want in life.

Sorry just had to get that all off my chest.

 

[IamAman]

Another day, did not get up as early as planned this morning, but did not get triggered like I used to when I overslept.

Made sure I went to the gym and had a good session. Now going to do a confidence exercise, then do some chicken, lentils and salad before drinking some green tea.

Getting an early night so all prepped and refreshed for tomorrow.

Not beating myself up over today for once, I made sure I got to the gym so I have done something productive and had a good session with one of the instructors there, so got some new pointers on exercising.

 

[IamAman]

Well its been another day. I am purposefully not counting the days as last time I tried this, the counting of days seemed to create pressure on myself.

Anyway I have had no urges so all is good. I have kept myself busy by going to the parents in the morning and helping with some gardening that needed doing.

Also done my NLP confidence exercise.

This afternoon I got bored and drove into town, ended up chatting to brunette shop assistant for quite some while. Was nice to just chat and not be putting pressure on myself thinking about sex. She also said that she enjoyed chatting, that actually made my day.

currently in bed reading "Ask and it is given". I want to build a strong attitude of gratitude as it seems a healthy way to live.

Tomorrow is gym day so looking forward to that.

Anyway hope you guys are having a good Un.

 

[IamAman]

This morning I successfully fought the urge to stay in bed. I got up and got on with it. As I have the week off I am really impressed with this. I woke up before the alarm and instead of laying in bed I got up and got out the house.

Still got gym session to come and am looking forward to it.

Made a point of having breakfast as I didn't used to bother but had it 4 days in a row.

Had no urges, still find women attractive but not sure if I have turned asexual or something. I experienced this on a previous streak then a couple of weeks later a woman just smiling would give me wood. So I guess this is part of the process.

Glad I have beaten my normal 7 days (44 days is longest streak but normally last till day 5 - 7 on average.

Anyway just gonna chill for a bit and maybe do some meditation before hitting the gym.

 

[martin]

Sounds like you are doing good!

The fact that you'r not counting days is probably a good thing, I am too obsessed about the amount of days that it becomes a burden, so I will try to not be too concerned about it.

Keep it up!