AdmiralAdama
Member
Hi all,
I am a 20 something year old determined to give up porn, after suffering from its destructive effects in my life. Physically, I am exhausted and continually suffer from brain fog. My skin is terrible, and I can hear the beating of my heart after a long porn binge. I've used escorts in the past, although not for a year now. I've been on chatrooms and webcams, and now I'm done with it.
I'm fed up of seeing those on Facebook doing well, and I'm sat in my room to porn. It's sad and pathetic. My motivation is non-existent. Although giving up porn won't change all of this, I am expecting a change in mood to give me the desire to do something about my pitiful existence.
My triggers seem to be when I'm down about something. People resort to food, alcohol, drugs etc. I resort to porn, and now I have to stop. I'm considering deactivating my Facebook account for the duration of my initial target.
I like to think of myself as a Christian, although with this over my head, it's very difficult to take myself seriously. All of this guilt and shame from porn, and what I've done. I'm a big Battlestar Galactica fan, and I feel like Baltar. I have to stop now, or I never will.
I would appreciate if anyone has any experience regarding the computer filters i.e. K9 to let me know how it went.
Thank you for reading, and wish me luck! ;D
I will update this everyday. My initial target is 60 days, and then I'll revise if I achieve it.
So say we all!
I am a 20 something year old determined to give up porn, after suffering from its destructive effects in my life. Physically, I am exhausted and continually suffer from brain fog. My skin is terrible, and I can hear the beating of my heart after a long porn binge. I've used escorts in the past, although not for a year now. I've been on chatrooms and webcams, and now I'm done with it.
I'm fed up of seeing those on Facebook doing well, and I'm sat in my room to porn. It's sad and pathetic. My motivation is non-existent. Although giving up porn won't change all of this, I am expecting a change in mood to give me the desire to do something about my pitiful existence.
My triggers seem to be when I'm down about something. People resort to food, alcohol, drugs etc. I resort to porn, and now I have to stop. I'm considering deactivating my Facebook account for the duration of my initial target.
I like to think of myself as a Christian, although with this over my head, it's very difficult to take myself seriously. All of this guilt and shame from porn, and what I've done. I'm a big Battlestar Galactica fan, and I feel like Baltar. I have to stop now, or I never will.
I would appreciate if anyone has any experience regarding the computer filters i.e. K9 to let me know how it went.
Thank you for reading, and wish me luck! ;D
I will update this everyday. My initial target is 60 days, and then I'll revise if I achieve it.
So say we all!