nofapjourney79
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Hello guys
Help! I can't seem to beat this addiction! Let me give you a little bit of my history, first off I'm 34 and married with no kids. I've been married for three years this is my second marriage. I've been watching porn since I was 10 years old. It all started with my fathers Playboy and Penthouse collection I would spend hours looking at the pictures and tore out my favorite pictures to view later. I didnt actually start masturbating to porn until I discovered his vhs collection of porn tapes anytime I was alone I would go on a porn hunt in the house as he also rented movies so I could usually find new porn every week. I did this routine weekly until bout the age of 16 when my mom and dad separated and my brother and I stayed with mom. I had a sega dreamcast video game console and I was able to surf the web all be it through dial up. I would click on porn images until I found the one I liked and fap. Well I went pics online to videos online as the internet became faster. At age 23 I got married to my first wife and I also got my first computer until that time I had been able to have some form of successful sex with a few chics before i met my wife I could get hard and stay hard but I could not orgasm with a real woman no matter how long I went . At the time I was proud of it as I felt I had control of my body.
Well when I got married our sex wasn't much better and I started to use porn anytime I was alone which was alot as my first wife liked to go places and i would beg off going so i could stay home and watch porn. This is when I started noticing becoming harder and harder to keep an erection during sex with my wife and it got to a point where we weren't even having sex as you can guess this marriage didnt last long as she cheated several times but i couldnt blame her who would wanna stay in a sexless marriage.
In the years I spent by myself I pmo'ed several times a day isolated myself lost friendships lost confidence and had high anxiety. I eventually met my second wife and had extreme ed i could get it up but couldnt keep it up. We continued to date despite my sexual issues. I reduced my porn watching and I saw some benefits as I could finally orgasm only through oral sex I have never been able to orgasm through vaginal sex. Well we got married and and I started upping my porn viewing and our sex life is horrible. Its gotten to the point where I dont even wanna have sex anymore and we dont most of the time because of my issues. I know porn is the reason behind my sexual problems and I wanna quit it but the longest streak ive had is about 16 days and lately I cant eem to make it past 2 days. Help me please any tips and advice would be gladly appreciated
Help! I can't seem to beat this addiction! Let me give you a little bit of my history, first off I'm 34 and married with no kids. I've been married for three years this is my second marriage. I've been watching porn since I was 10 years old. It all started with my fathers Playboy and Penthouse collection I would spend hours looking at the pictures and tore out my favorite pictures to view later. I didnt actually start masturbating to porn until I discovered his vhs collection of porn tapes anytime I was alone I would go on a porn hunt in the house as he also rented movies so I could usually find new porn every week. I did this routine weekly until bout the age of 16 when my mom and dad separated and my brother and I stayed with mom. I had a sega dreamcast video game console and I was able to surf the web all be it through dial up. I would click on porn images until I found the one I liked and fap. Well I went pics online to videos online as the internet became faster. At age 23 I got married to my first wife and I also got my first computer until that time I had been able to have some form of successful sex with a few chics before i met my wife I could get hard and stay hard but I could not orgasm with a real woman no matter how long I went . At the time I was proud of it as I felt I had control of my body.
Well when I got married our sex wasn't much better and I started to use porn anytime I was alone which was alot as my first wife liked to go places and i would beg off going so i could stay home and watch porn. This is when I started noticing becoming harder and harder to keep an erection during sex with my wife and it got to a point where we weren't even having sex as you can guess this marriage didnt last long as she cheated several times but i couldnt blame her who would wanna stay in a sexless marriage.
In the years I spent by myself I pmo'ed several times a day isolated myself lost friendships lost confidence and had high anxiety. I eventually met my second wife and had extreme ed i could get it up but couldnt keep it up. We continued to date despite my sexual issues. I reduced my porn watching and I saw some benefits as I could finally orgasm only through oral sex I have never been able to orgasm through vaginal sex. Well we got married and and I started upping my porn viewing and our sex life is horrible. Its gotten to the point where I dont even wanna have sex anymore and we dont most of the time because of my issues. I know porn is the reason behind my sexual problems and I wanna quit it but the longest streak ive had is about 16 days and lately I cant eem to make it past 2 days. Help me please any tips and advice would be gladly appreciated