Lauralou82
Member
Hi ladies.
I haven't posted in a while - firstly that troll put me off and secondly I needed a bit of processing time as I needed to deal with my cptsd responses to the situation.
My partner swears he hasn't PMOd or MOd since D-day a couple of days be for new year. After a couple of weeks things got really good, his sensitivity had increased and presence had improved. Unfortunately that didn't last long - he got really moody and I felt he resented me. He would only engage physically once he decided he wanted an orgasm and when he did that's what it was all about.... He always goes straight in for the big finish, very little build up and the idea of any foreplay for me and he would rather not bother at all.
Now I'm not sure if there's been some kind of flatline issue but we've nearly went our separate ways a couple of times these past few months.... And it's basically come down to broken trust and his resentment of not being trusted (with little effort to regain what he broke) as if my unconditional trust that he took for granted and disregarded is some kind of entitlement that I am denying him!
So.... To what's playing on my mind now.... I'm pretty sure he slipped back and reinstated his solo sex life as for the past month things bottomed out completely. Although he's been more open to making sure I'm satisfied (even though sex is still all about whether or not he's going to get there) he was unable to finish for about 3-4 weeks up until yesterday. Sesnsitivity has drastically decreased again and that feeling of being a chore is back. Could this be flatline? Why did the sensitivity drop?
I'm definitely not a once a week kind of woman! I really miss the idea of sex always being on the table and just being able to have fun with it and build up over time
I haven't posted in a while - firstly that troll put me off and secondly I needed a bit of processing time as I needed to deal with my cptsd responses to the situation.
My partner swears he hasn't PMOd or MOd since D-day a couple of days be for new year. After a couple of weeks things got really good, his sensitivity had increased and presence had improved. Unfortunately that didn't last long - he got really moody and I felt he resented me. He would only engage physically once he decided he wanted an orgasm and when he did that's what it was all about.... He always goes straight in for the big finish, very little build up and the idea of any foreplay for me and he would rather not bother at all.
Now I'm not sure if there's been some kind of flatline issue but we've nearly went our separate ways a couple of times these past few months.... And it's basically come down to broken trust and his resentment of not being trusted (with little effort to regain what he broke) as if my unconditional trust that he took for granted and disregarded is some kind of entitlement that I am denying him!
So.... To what's playing on my mind now.... I'm pretty sure he slipped back and reinstated his solo sex life as for the past month things bottomed out completely. Although he's been more open to making sure I'm satisfied (even though sex is still all about whether or not he's going to get there) he was unable to finish for about 3-4 weeks up until yesterday. Sesnsitivity has drastically decreased again and that feeling of being a chore is back. Could this be flatline? Why did the sensitivity drop?
I'm definitely not a once a week kind of woman! I really miss the idea of sex always being on the table and just being able to have fun with it and build up over time