MarstonS
Member
Hello all. I have a journal over at Your brain rebalanced but for some reason there is some server error and the board can not be accessed and well, I just need to journal. It keeps me on track. So even though I probably head over there, if it gets fixed, I hope I still am welcome here for journaling in the meantime. Perhaps I stay even if it get's fixed. Who knows
I have been rebooting since November 2012 and had many streaks going and also many many MANY relapses. Non of my streaks were really impressive in length. I think my longest no masturbation streak were arond 75 days and my longest no porn streak, when I was without internet, some four and a half months (about 130 days). Looking back at my four years I'd say my average is only about 20-30 days though. So yeah, I still struggle with this.
Relapsed this weekend again after a no masturbation and no porn streak of 55 days. That was my longest streak since the summer of 2016. Today is day one and I'm at it again. Determined to reboot and get this shit our of my life.
Things I want to improve with the help of rebooting:
- Libido and erections. (I can have sex but I am nowere near full capacity)
- Anxiety (mostly social but with some general anxiety aswell)
- Depression (comes and goes in strength)
- Focus and concentration (I have a hard time focusing on a task for any length of time, some adhd action going there. Short time memory problems as well. All indicative of addiction)
I have been rebooting since November 2012 and had many streaks going and also many many MANY relapses. Non of my streaks were really impressive in length. I think my longest no masturbation streak were arond 75 days and my longest no porn streak, when I was without internet, some four and a half months (about 130 days). Looking back at my four years I'd say my average is only about 20-30 days though. So yeah, I still struggle with this.
Relapsed this weekend again after a no masturbation and no porn streak of 55 days. That was my longest streak since the summer of 2016. Today is day one and I'm at it again. Determined to reboot and get this shit our of my life.
Things I want to improve with the help of rebooting:
- Libido and erections. (I can have sex but I am nowere near full capacity)
- Anxiety (mostly social but with some general anxiety aswell)
- Depression (comes and goes in strength)
- Focus and concentration (I have a hard time focusing on a task for any length of time, some adhd action going there. Short time memory problems as well. All indicative of addiction)