I discovered my porn induced ED about a year and a half ago.
Since the age of 11? (23 now) I've watched ALOT of porn. And as I remember the vanilla porn was not enough for me, so I always had to find something new (It got pretty sick). Now, about 10 years later my brain has rewired itself pretty strong, and I always get embarresed when I cant get hard or horny with the girls... It's just soooo annoying. But I always seem to relapse for that instant rush of dopamines even that I know I should not.
Ive known about yourbrainonporn for about a year, and yes I have felt that when on a high streak; lets say 14+ days, my confidence is sky high.I once had a streak of 30 days and had sex with a girl and I have to say that it was a mind blowing experience, it was unreal (is it suposed to be that nice ??). 100x times better than porn.
If I cant make this promise to myself,
I cant do shit.
I have to stop rationalise.
I havent made a 7 day streak for about 3 months, and the girls keep getting disapointed...
This journal is just for myself to look back to.
Help me out.
Since the age of 11? (23 now) I've watched ALOT of porn. And as I remember the vanilla porn was not enough for me, so I always had to find something new (It got pretty sick). Now, about 10 years later my brain has rewired itself pretty strong, and I always get embarresed when I cant get hard or horny with the girls... It's just soooo annoying. But I always seem to relapse for that instant rush of dopamines even that I know I should not.
Ive known about yourbrainonporn for about a year, and yes I have felt that when on a high streak; lets say 14+ days, my confidence is sky high.I once had a streak of 30 days and had sex with a girl and I have to say that it was a mind blowing experience, it was unreal (is it suposed to be that nice ??). 100x times better than porn.
If I cant make this promise to myself,
I cant do shit.
I have to stop rationalise.
I havent made a 7 day streak for about 3 months, and the girls keep getting disapointed...
This journal is just for myself to look back to.
Help me out.