One quote from 'hackbookeasypeasy' I disagree with...

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Stevew

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This quote is talking about when a PMO-er decided to relapse after a streak after all of the thoughts in his head convincing him to give up...
''At this stage the PMOer usually gives in. He fires up his browser and the schizophrenia increases. On the one hand there is the tremendous relief of ending the craving, when the little monster finally gets his fix; on the other hand, the orgasm is awful and the PMOer cannot understand why he is doing it. This is why the PMOer thinks he lacks willpower.''

Is it just me or is the first orgasm/relapse actually feel quite good? I have a strong orgasm and feel quite good afterwards. For me its the orgasms after the first 1 that start being shit and make me think urgh why do i even do this? Does this mean anything? And when i start bingeing i can go on for weeks without enjoying it but almost feeling like I'm being forced to... but yeah the initial orgasm for me personally feels good and makes me feel happier.

I think i may try increasing my wellbutrin dose from 300mg to 450mg. It has improved my mood a bit but im just too bummed out to do anything even though i want to. I know tablets aren't good etc but I'm really running out of ideas. I've been to two therapists (spoke to a phycastrist for a while which sort of worked as therapy). I'm going to university in about 120 days and i don't want to be depressed and wanking because i will bet $$$ for the first month or so i will be lonely.

Just to add I've tried quitting for 3 years. I'm at a point where even if the increase in tablets had say a small % of killing me it would probably be worth the risk.
 
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Stevew

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For me that first relapse feels great... which then makes me want to do it again only to find out this time it wasn't... and it only gets worse as i binge.

 
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varunsharma

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Stevew said:
This quote is talking about when a PMO-er decided to relapse after a streak after all of the thoughts in his head convincing him to give up...
''At this stage the PMOer usually gives in. He fires up his browser and the schizophrenia increases. On the one hand there is the tremendous relief of ending the craving, when the little monster finally gets his fix; on the other hand, the orgasm is awful and the PMOer cannot understand why he is doing it. This is why the PMOer thinks he lacks willpower.''

Is it just me or is the first orgasm/relapse actually feel quite good? I have a strong orgasm and feel quite good afterwards. For me its the orgasms after the first 1 that start being shit and make me think urgh why do i even do this? Does this mean anything? And when i start bingeing i can go on for weeks without enjoying it but almost feeling like I'm being forced to... but yeah the initial orgasm for me personally feels good and makes me feel happier.

I think i may try increasing my wellbutrin dose from 300mg to 450mg. It has improved my mood a bit but im just too bummed out to do anything even though i want to. I know tablets aren't good etc but I'm really running out of ideas. I've been to two therapists (spoke to a phycastrist for a while which sort of worked as therapy). I'm going to university in about 120 days and i don't want to be depressed and wanking because i will bet $$$ for the first month or so i will be lonely.

Just to add I've tried quitting for 3 years. I'm at a point where even if the increase in tablets had say a small % of killing me it would probably be worth the risk.
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see , sometimes it does feel a little good, but most of the times it is bad.you should always realize that relapsing once is always a bad idea as it creates an array of relapses due to the shame and the guilt involved, also u get to see some of the withdrawals , as if like u had not pmoed from say 30 days and had started feeling a bit more energetic and  had developed some conc, that is you were seeing some kind of improvement in yourself, when u pmo then u will experience that u go down to lets say some 5-7 days earlier in terms of your reboot.

so always tell yourself and remind yourself that pmo is not an option , u should have the mentality that u r not going to watch porn ever in your life, so why watch today.

also consider pmoing as stabbing yourself with a knife and simultaneously getting some feeling out of it for some seconds(the orgasm), but after that u know that u would have to heal the wound and that would take  time and would further damage your body.
 
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