1. To feel better, more positive, cure ed, have a gf, less anxiety. Being able to live in the present.
2. I just feel I can't take it anymore, I can be a few days without watching porn and I feel great and then I fall back and I feel truly anxious and full of anger and just somber.
3. No
4. Yes, I have friends and family and play sports etc.
5. I play tennis
6. No
7. I feel I might have some serious health issues because of the stress it causes. But I have tried every single thing I can think of. I have looked on youtube and google for every single way of quitting ( including cutting of all internet ) and none of it worked. The longest I have gone without pmo was 33 days. This was 6 months ago.
8. This is a difficult question to answer because I have other issues, and I can't be sure if it's porn that causes certain negative things in my life or it's because of something else. But I think it causes my social anxiety and it makes me want to stay at home a lot. I am not able to work because of my anxiety. I sometimes feel hatred towards women.
9. It will probably stop me from developing and knowing what I want to with my life and make me more passive. I don't think I can have a relationship and kids when I have this addiction.
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But it feels pointless to keep trying because I keep failing and I don't have a new way of approaching this addiction and overcoming it. No offense, but all advice seems to be the same thing: get a porn blocker, stay positive, have willpower, keep a journal, talk to someone, play sports, cut off the internet etc. None of this has worked for me.