MrBony
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So... I'm 6 days in and my mind is playing tricks on me. Im having sexual dreams that are quite chaotic. This NoFap business is clearly having an impact on a psychological level.
Oddly enough I find myself interested in reading and study for the first time in a while and have dug out my Nietzsche books and am enjoying them. But there seems to be rather a mix going on as I fluctuate between increased clarity and utter brain fog in which my totrured mind strives to return to the gutter. It's funny but before doing this NoFap, I had no idea what was meant by "brain fog" but over the last few days I have experienced it in no uncertain terms. I become aware of it as if heavy clouds were interspersed with breaks and the sunlight breaks through and illuminates me for shorter or longer periods.
In a way, an addiction is like being possesed by a demon. It offers you a short term reward in return for your soul. If you are now aware of your soul, it seems like a good deal. After years of life with no soul, I endeavour to reclaim my soul and tear up the contract with the devil that I had been duped into signing. NOW the value of my soul is in the light of understanding and I see the heavy price I continue to pay. The demon wants to keep it's contract in vigour and whispers in my ear to keep the contract alive. It offers me troubled sleep and mutters lustful comments about every woman who crosses my path.
After such a short time, the super power of which long time NoFappers speak is visible on the horizon. YouTube is full of people who uphold or debunk the idea of the super powers, but I can see them shining albeit at a distance.
Starve the demon. Soon he will lose interest and bother someone else.
Oddly enough I find myself interested in reading and study for the first time in a while and have dug out my Nietzsche books and am enjoying them. But there seems to be rather a mix going on as I fluctuate between increased clarity and utter brain fog in which my totrured mind strives to return to the gutter. It's funny but before doing this NoFap, I had no idea what was meant by "brain fog" but over the last few days I have experienced it in no uncertain terms. I become aware of it as if heavy clouds were interspersed with breaks and the sunlight breaks through and illuminates me for shorter or longer periods.
In a way, an addiction is like being possesed by a demon. It offers you a short term reward in return for your soul. If you are now aware of your soul, it seems like a good deal. After years of life with no soul, I endeavour to reclaim my soul and tear up the contract with the devil that I had been duped into signing. NOW the value of my soul is in the light of understanding and I see the heavy price I continue to pay. The demon wants to keep it's contract in vigour and whispers in my ear to keep the contract alive. It offers me troubled sleep and mutters lustful comments about every woman who crosses my path.
After such a short time, the super power of which long time NoFappers speak is visible on the horizon. YouTube is full of people who uphold or debunk the idea of the super powers, but I can see them shining albeit at a distance.
Starve the demon. Soon he will lose interest and bother someone else.
