This is my first journal entry. I am a 56 year old man, been fapping since age 13 or 14; a very long time. Like most people my age it started with magazines, developed into movies, then came the vcr, the dvd, the home computer, and finally the smart phone. I have 17 years sobriety from alcohol but have not been to an AA meeting for 8-10 years. No real temptation to drink. This PMO addiction has been killing me slowly for years. I told myself I would stop when I turned 18, when I got into college, when I got out of college, when I turned 21, when I got married, when I got divorced, when I got remarried, blah, blah, blah. I found the information on addiction at YBOP eye-opening and hoped just knowing the brain science would be enough for me to finally quit; it wasn't. I had a period of 22 days back in April-May. That was the longest period in many years. Since then I've gone an hour, a day, 5 days was the longest, I think. I was a regular member of SA but have not been back there for years either and have no desire to go back. I am hoping that commitment to getting clean and reliance on this and other websites will finally help me get out of this hell I've been in. I am in my second marriage, about 3 weeks short of our 20th anniversary. Two kids from each marriage the eldest being 27, the youngest 15. I told them all about the alcohol addiction but not about this one. I told my wife when I was going to SA for the first time about 16 years ago. Our relationship has never been the same since. I read the inspiring messages of guys who have clocked serious recovery time and that it what I really want, not the images I've trained my brain to crave. That's enough for now. Best of luck to all of you here.