Reboot_Dude
Active Member
It'll be day 40 tomorrow, could very nearly have been day 1!
I got set off through thoughts of massage for a bad back I have... one thing led to another and I was reading masseuse stories of clients who'd got boners on their tables. Then I saw a few dodgy, but censored, massage videos on YouTube. Later in the night I'd had a bottle of wine and looked up some videos of girls dancing... I even got to the point of looking at adult workers in my area. I then had a night laid in bed with an erection trying desperately not to play with it.
BUT, I never gave in and while I know I shouldn't have let myself look at the things I did, I kept my resolve and saw it through. I guess the point of this is just to show how easily the tiniest little lapse in discipline can snowball into something much more damaging to your cause.
Keep strong guys, when you've relapsed a few times you'll understand that 90 days isn't really all that long!
I got set off through thoughts of massage for a bad back I have... one thing led to another and I was reading masseuse stories of clients who'd got boners on their tables. Then I saw a few dodgy, but censored, massage videos on YouTube. Later in the night I'd had a bottle of wine and looked up some videos of girls dancing... I even got to the point of looking at adult workers in my area. I then had a night laid in bed with an erection trying desperately not to play with it.
BUT, I never gave in and while I know I shouldn't have let myself look at the things I did, I kept my resolve and saw it through. I guess the point of this is just to show how easily the tiniest little lapse in discipline can snowball into something much more damaging to your cause.
Keep strong guys, when you've relapsed a few times you'll understand that 90 days isn't really all that long!
