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Hallo to you all fellow rebooters.
I am 26 years old I've been fapping for 12 years I started fapping when I was 14, I had no access to internet back then so I relied on women's magazines and sometimes adult magazines that I would steal from friends. It went on until I started downloading adult materials through my phone 3 years ago, a year later I decided to take a brake which lasted for 3 months. I've never had a girlfriend since then till this year (2014) january. To me it was never a problem since I believed that girls didn't find me attractive since am a big guy in body size, on the other hand when I was young guys used to make fun of me saying that I had a small Penis, which I would later in life discover it was a lie. So my story goes like this:
On the 31 December I was out drinking with friends and I managed to approach some nice girl who I didn't have feelings for (later she becomes my girl friend), I was just trying my luck cause I was worried that I was a 25 years old virgin, after she left, I went to another one who was drunk and asked for sex for which she agreed, we went to the back of the building were it was dark and empty and started making out for the 1st time in my life my Soldier did not Stand for salute, I didn't worry about it I just thought that I was too drunk, few days later me and my new girlfriend tried to have sex, this time I was sober but still I had another ED, this time It really got me worried, I was embarrassed and humiliated so much that I wanted to kill my self for real. The truth is I new Porn was my problem, I just didn't want to admit it. Me and my girlfriend are in what I call a distance relationship since I work in the City and she is in the villages. I only travel down there ones every 3 months. So I told my friend what happened and he said that It was anxiety. I promised my girl that I will come back during easter and this time is gonna happen, I went back during easter holidays but I made sure that everytime we were together I was drunk. I used that as an excuse to not have sex cause I was scared I might have another ED, last weekend I went back there again, we only had 6 hours together since I had to travel back to work early on sunday...This time I was prepared, I even bought condoms, but still ED kicked in...my girl was very supportive as she suggested that I go see a doctor, I promised her that I will as soon as I get to the city. She asked me why I couldn't stay hard and I lied to her and said I was thinking about my Ex. She doesn't know that she is my 1st girlfriend and I hate lying to her. I came back to the city and started searching the net for solutions to my ED that's when I found this site. I got to say that the testimonies in here made me feel like am home, I cried tears of joy when I read stories in here cause I could relate to every story I was reading. Now the problem is, I decided to stop watching porn on monday, the last time I watched it was on friday just before I took a bus to travel home. Now I don't feel horny at all, I don't feel anything on my Penis, no morning Wood, I've lost sensitivity on my skin, I don't feel like doing anything, not rubbing or Sexing. Is like My mind is shut. I decided that I was gonna stop fantasising and stop googling chicks on the street when am walking, but now am scared that I may not get my D""" back, am so desperate that I would give up everything just to have a normal erection without Porn, by just looking at a girl or just a touch from my girlfriend cause now when she touches me I feel cold, she even tried to give me a BJ but it was just useless.
Am not planning on going back to my old life, I want to stay clean for life. But as the days goes by a get stressed I feel like am permanently damaged.
A LIST OF MY PROBLEMS
- Can't get erect without porn
- No sensitivity on my Penis
- Porn
WHAT AM BUSY DOING TO SOLVE MY PROBLEMS
-Abstaining from Porn and Fapping
-Avoiding any Sexual fantasies
-Exercising
-Eating a lot of fruits
-Rebooting with a 90 Days Target.
-Avoiding any erection(even though I haven't got any in 3 days)
Please Help me with the do's and Don't's of Rebooting since this is my 1st official Reboot.
Thanks a lot Fam, and Please keep those success stories posted cause they motivate us Beginners. God bless.
I am 26 years old I've been fapping for 12 years I started fapping when I was 14, I had no access to internet back then so I relied on women's magazines and sometimes adult magazines that I would steal from friends. It went on until I started downloading adult materials through my phone 3 years ago, a year later I decided to take a brake which lasted for 3 months. I've never had a girlfriend since then till this year (2014) january. To me it was never a problem since I believed that girls didn't find me attractive since am a big guy in body size, on the other hand when I was young guys used to make fun of me saying that I had a small Penis, which I would later in life discover it was a lie. So my story goes like this:
On the 31 December I was out drinking with friends and I managed to approach some nice girl who I didn't have feelings for (later she becomes my girl friend), I was just trying my luck cause I was worried that I was a 25 years old virgin, after she left, I went to another one who was drunk and asked for sex for which she agreed, we went to the back of the building were it was dark and empty and started making out for the 1st time in my life my Soldier did not Stand for salute, I didn't worry about it I just thought that I was too drunk, few days later me and my new girlfriend tried to have sex, this time I was sober but still I had another ED, this time It really got me worried, I was embarrassed and humiliated so much that I wanted to kill my self for real. The truth is I new Porn was my problem, I just didn't want to admit it. Me and my girlfriend are in what I call a distance relationship since I work in the City and she is in the villages. I only travel down there ones every 3 months. So I told my friend what happened and he said that It was anxiety. I promised my girl that I will come back during easter and this time is gonna happen, I went back during easter holidays but I made sure that everytime we were together I was drunk. I used that as an excuse to not have sex cause I was scared I might have another ED, last weekend I went back there again, we only had 6 hours together since I had to travel back to work early on sunday...This time I was prepared, I even bought condoms, but still ED kicked in...my girl was very supportive as she suggested that I go see a doctor, I promised her that I will as soon as I get to the city. She asked me why I couldn't stay hard and I lied to her and said I was thinking about my Ex. She doesn't know that she is my 1st girlfriend and I hate lying to her. I came back to the city and started searching the net for solutions to my ED that's when I found this site. I got to say that the testimonies in here made me feel like am home, I cried tears of joy when I read stories in here cause I could relate to every story I was reading. Now the problem is, I decided to stop watching porn on monday, the last time I watched it was on friday just before I took a bus to travel home. Now I don't feel horny at all, I don't feel anything on my Penis, no morning Wood, I've lost sensitivity on my skin, I don't feel like doing anything, not rubbing or Sexing. Is like My mind is shut. I decided that I was gonna stop fantasising and stop googling chicks on the street when am walking, but now am scared that I may not get my D""" back, am so desperate that I would give up everything just to have a normal erection without Porn, by just looking at a girl or just a touch from my girlfriend cause now when she touches me I feel cold, she even tried to give me a BJ but it was just useless.
Am not planning on going back to my old life, I want to stay clean for life. But as the days goes by a get stressed I feel like am permanently damaged.
A LIST OF MY PROBLEMS
- Can't get erect without porn
- No sensitivity on my Penis
- Porn
WHAT AM BUSY DOING TO SOLVE MY PROBLEMS
-Abstaining from Porn and Fapping
-Avoiding any Sexual fantasies
-Exercising
-Eating a lot of fruits
-Rebooting with a 90 Days Target.
-Avoiding any erection(even though I haven't got any in 3 days)
Please Help me with the do's and Don't's of Rebooting since this is my 1st official Reboot.
Thanks a lot Fam, and Please keep those success stories posted cause they motivate us Beginners. God bless.