Got many things to say but i will try to summarise. been battling with porn addiction for 10yrs. Just yesterday i remembered i had first watched porn sites in 2004 when i was an engineer in a cyber cafe. but i never masturbated until 2007 and since then up till nowi am still hooked. I am married with 2kids. I have a job.
But i used to think if i have an acocuntability partner that things will change and yes it worked for 2 months but my partner does not reply my messages on time so i have relapsed again. I have posted in some other parts of this forum for need for a partner but no response yet even i answered some pple that i wanted to be there partner and yet no one replied.
Anyways, tonight i feel so depressed after having relapsed 24hrs ago while my wife was praying in one roo i was in the other room watching porn, how sick is that? I am deep financial mess and i need a life saver urgently.
Now the main issue is that i believe the reason why i am feeling like this is cos of porn addiction. I am 37yrs and i am not focussed. I dont have a specific path to achieve my one and only goal TO BE FINANACIALLY FREE. i keep reading about different ways to make money but not taking action. I feel all this is a side effect of watching porn.
well really i have just been ranting so far, maybe i just wanted to pour my heart out. I dont even know what i want to achieve by theis post, i am just sad and depressed and somewhat confused.
I may not have erctyle disfunction or any type of porn related disease or challenge. But maybe my own challenege or issue is psychological. i cant concenrate for long, i cant sit down and focus on a long term or short term goal. except ofcourse if i have a oartner , someone to urge me on daily.
Guess i am just looking for somewhere to pour out my heart. Hope to read from anyone who has some solution or well just to read some replies. cos i am just confused and sad. I feel i have a lot of reasons not to watch porn but the addiction is strong i guess. May God help us all.
Please does anyone know any other online forum for christians to that have porn addiction challenge?
than nk you for your time
But i used to think if i have an acocuntability partner that things will change and yes it worked for 2 months but my partner does not reply my messages on time so i have relapsed again. I have posted in some other parts of this forum for need for a partner but no response yet even i answered some pple that i wanted to be there partner and yet no one replied.
Anyways, tonight i feel so depressed after having relapsed 24hrs ago while my wife was praying in one roo i was in the other room watching porn, how sick is that? I am deep financial mess and i need a life saver urgently.
Now the main issue is that i believe the reason why i am feeling like this is cos of porn addiction. I am 37yrs and i am not focussed. I dont have a specific path to achieve my one and only goal TO BE FINANACIALLY FREE. i keep reading about different ways to make money but not taking action. I feel all this is a side effect of watching porn.
well really i have just been ranting so far, maybe i just wanted to pour my heart out. I dont even know what i want to achieve by theis post, i am just sad and depressed and somewhat confused.
I may not have erctyle disfunction or any type of porn related disease or challenge. But maybe my own challenege or issue is psychological. i cant concenrate for long, i cant sit down and focus on a long term or short term goal. except ofcourse if i have a oartner , someone to urge me on daily.
Guess i am just looking for somewhere to pour out my heart. Hope to read from anyone who has some solution or well just to read some replies. cos i am just confused and sad. I feel i have a lot of reasons not to watch porn but the addiction is strong i guess. May God help us all.
Please does anyone know any other online forum for christians to that have porn addiction challenge?
than nk you for your time
