milobagelhead
New Member
Hey guys, I'm new here thought I might outline my situation and hopefully can learn a thing or two from you guys 
First off though I want to say a huge thank you to everyone on here and to the entire community. When I realised I have an erectile dysfunction problem I was absolutely terrified but I feel like having people to talk to is going to help a lot. I'm probably gonna ramble on about a lot of crap that doesn't seem relevant but I'll try and a least be entertaining and if even one person replied to this it would mean the world to me because PIED is not something I'm at all comfortable talking about to my friends.
I'm 18, I've been masturbating practically daily since the age of 11, for the majority of that time to high speed internet porn. I find it completely unbelievable that nobody is talking about this and warning teens. The reason I decided to quit porn for good was that I realised that masturbating to porn in the last couple of months my erections have been getting weaker and weaker. Regular PIV pornography wasn't as arousing as it once was and looking at barely clothed women did nothing for me at all. I reached a personal low when I masturbated to porn and ejaculated before barely getting a semi. That was the last time I masturbated and the last time I will *ever* watch porn and that was one week ago. (Yay! happy anniversary amirite?) I am thankful that I found Gary Wilson's Ted talk before I began to watch more extreme porn to get my fix. I'm even more grateful that my unhealthy dependence on masturbation did not affect my ability to befriend and fall in love with women, seeing them as more than objects.
I'm socially quite capable comfortable and confident around women, however I am technically a virgin and have only recently started making out etc. with girls. My main problem is that because of my lack of experience I don't really know how badly affected I will be in real life sex, which with me starting university in a few days time is probably not a far off prospect. Recently (on day 2 of rebooting) I made out with a friend of mine who I am definitely attracted to (bc in the past I was sorta in love with her haha) and got semi hard despite being a bit drunk, but we stopped well short of intercourse and its impossible to know whether I could have done it successfully. Encouragingly a couple of weeks ago before I even considered quitting porn I was flirting with a real girl over text and got a rock hard erection for the first time in I don't know how long which gives me hope that I might be able to perform better in person than I fear. [irrelevant but entertaining anecdote] ->This was a very attractive girl who was definitely super into me but I blew it by saying that "Harry Styles is a mediocre vocalist whose best songs were written by other people" she went from dtf to full on hating me in the space of a minute
About my reboot progress, today is day 7 and in that time I've barely had single sexual impulse and maybe one or two weak erections max, my libido is literally the lowest its ever been. Is it common to go straight into a scary flatline like this immediately at the beginning of a reboot? On the plus side I'm not actually craving porn at all which I find surprising, if anything knowing what I know now porn repulses me. It probably goes to show that for me I was hooked on the dopamine kick more than the porn itself. I masturbated to to help me sleep, to kill time and to relieve stress it was like an addiction to a painkiller and the porn was only ever a means to an end for me. I was able to masturbate without porn before though not as successfully though now that I've stopped porn altogether I can't get hard at all by myself.
I know that I shouldn't be focused on the time scale and that I'm still young but given that I've never had severe limp d*ck with a real girl what do you guys think my chances are for a relatively smooth recovery in like 4 months or so? My issue is that even though I'm willing to give it whatever it takes to get this right first time, I feel like I'll be viewed as some kind of weird adult virgin by my friends who have no idea about my "inner demons" if my recovery takes too long
First off though I want to say a huge thank you to everyone on here and to the entire community. When I realised I have an erectile dysfunction problem I was absolutely terrified but I feel like having people to talk to is going to help a lot. I'm probably gonna ramble on about a lot of crap that doesn't seem relevant but I'll try and a least be entertaining and if even one person replied to this it would mean the world to me because PIED is not something I'm at all comfortable talking about to my friends.
I'm 18, I've been masturbating practically daily since the age of 11, for the majority of that time to high speed internet porn. I find it completely unbelievable that nobody is talking about this and warning teens. The reason I decided to quit porn for good was that I realised that masturbating to porn in the last couple of months my erections have been getting weaker and weaker. Regular PIV pornography wasn't as arousing as it once was and looking at barely clothed women did nothing for me at all. I reached a personal low when I masturbated to porn and ejaculated before barely getting a semi. That was the last time I masturbated and the last time I will *ever* watch porn and that was one week ago. (Yay! happy anniversary amirite?) I am thankful that I found Gary Wilson's Ted talk before I began to watch more extreme porn to get my fix. I'm even more grateful that my unhealthy dependence on masturbation did not affect my ability to befriend and fall in love with women, seeing them as more than objects.
I'm socially quite capable comfortable and confident around women, however I am technically a virgin and have only recently started making out etc. with girls. My main problem is that because of my lack of experience I don't really know how badly affected I will be in real life sex, which with me starting university in a few days time is probably not a far off prospect. Recently (on day 2 of rebooting) I made out with a friend of mine who I am definitely attracted to (bc in the past I was sorta in love with her haha) and got semi hard despite being a bit drunk, but we stopped well short of intercourse and its impossible to know whether I could have done it successfully. Encouragingly a couple of weeks ago before I even considered quitting porn I was flirting with a real girl over text and got a rock hard erection for the first time in I don't know how long which gives me hope that I might be able to perform better in person than I fear. [irrelevant but entertaining anecdote] ->This was a very attractive girl who was definitely super into me but I blew it by saying that "Harry Styles is a mediocre vocalist whose best songs were written by other people" she went from dtf to full on hating me in the space of a minute
About my reboot progress, today is day 7 and in that time I've barely had single sexual impulse and maybe one or two weak erections max, my libido is literally the lowest its ever been. Is it common to go straight into a scary flatline like this immediately at the beginning of a reboot? On the plus side I'm not actually craving porn at all which I find surprising, if anything knowing what I know now porn repulses me. It probably goes to show that for me I was hooked on the dopamine kick more than the porn itself. I masturbated to to help me sleep, to kill time and to relieve stress it was like an addiction to a painkiller and the porn was only ever a means to an end for me. I was able to masturbate without porn before though not as successfully though now that I've stopped porn altogether I can't get hard at all by myself.
I know that I shouldn't be focused on the time scale and that I'm still young but given that I've never had severe limp d*ck with a real girl what do you guys think my chances are for a relatively smooth recovery in like 4 months or so? My issue is that even though I'm willing to give it whatever it takes to get this right first time, I feel like I'll be viewed as some kind of weird adult virgin by my friends who have no idea about my "inner demons" if my recovery takes too long
