Accidentally ejaculated :(

[Reboot_Dude]

So I was on day 70 and was very proud I was on my way to 90 and beyond but I messed up. I had been quite horny yesterday, but managed to avoid looking at porn or masturbating though the day. I went to bed and did my usual of applying some vitamin E cream to my bits (really helps with the skin!). I got quite hard doing it and spent a bit too long rubbing it in, not actually masturbating, just running my fingers along it. When I felt it was going too far I stopped. Unfortunately my body didn't stop and even though I was no longer touching myself, I could feel an orgasm building, I squeezed my penis really hard to try and stop it but it didn't work and entirely against my will, I ejaculated. I didn't even experience the usual pleasure as I was so focused on trying to stop it.

I've tried to rationalise that it wasn't a relapse because it came about naturally, but I think I have to accept it's a set-back and I need to reset my counter.

I suppose the message is not to test yourself, you might not have the control you think you do! It's something I have had to learn the hard way.

 

[Elbastardo]

Hey man don't deny the pleasure from the orgasm, you masturbated so fucking what?!
It wasn't a relapse at all, you managed to keep yourself away from porn 70+ days and counting! You know how fucking difficult that is?! And you are ready to throw that effort away just because you masturbated?! come on man don't be so hard on you! look all you have amounted to! be proud!In my book that isn't at all a relapse.

 

[Reboot_Dude]

Thanks for the feedback, dude! Appreciate the positive words, I'm sure I haven't lost all my progress, I'll just have to keep on going I suppose. I had really wanted to get to 90 days, maybe next time I can manage it.

 

[Guy with new GF]

Penis's don't need vitamin E oil on them.
Hands off!

 

[Pr3c1se]

70 days is amazing!  That's now your number to beat.  Think of it as a competition.

As long as you're not masturbating to porn, and as long as you're not fantasizing about porn then youre OK!  Not as bad of a setback as you think.  Just don't let it get you down to the point where you end up chronically masturbating or even worse, watching porn.  Don't fall down that trap.  Restart your counter and beat 70!

 

[Reboot_Dude]

Penis's don't need vitamin E oil on them.
Hands off!

Well it has improved skin quality down there, it?s much smoother and healthier. Before I started rebooting I did have issues with chafing and soreness from masturbating. It?s something that was recommended by people on here for helping sensitivity... But yes, point taken!

 

[Reboot_Dude]

70 days is amazing!

Thank you, sir! I know I can do this, I was quite looking forward to trying to date but I want to get my 90 days done before I do, guess I have to wait a bit longer!

 

[muttej]

hey dude you know the good thing.your ejaculation happened without porn.got that.masturbation isnt the problem .porn is the problem.youre getging back to life my friend.sad truth is im not able to get an erection with watching porn even .compared to me you continue with your no porn decision.all the best

 

[Reboot_Dude]

hey dude you know the good thing.your ejaculation happened without porn.got that.masturbation isnt the problem .porn is the problem.youre getging back to life my friend.sad truth is im not able to get an erection with watching porn even .compared to me you continue with your no porn decision.all the best

I was in a similar position, keep working at this and you'll see things improve I swear!