Well just when you think everything?s going well, and I have been PMO free for over 200 days, then bang I get stuck in a trap and start watching videos and guess what happens next, I end up jerking off and O.... what a waste of over 200 and some days. I feel like shit!!! This PMO is a tough cookie to crack. I honestly thought I had beat, and then I little slip and now I feel like garbage
I thought I had a handle of this
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What happen was that I got two comfortable. And I started wandering a little bit, going online checking things out like escorts, then eventually opening up a fake email address. Then I started messaging some escorts checking out prices. Then eventually I met one and I didn?t even do anything with her I just stood there played with her breasts and your pussy?s and then left, I didn?t even cum. Then I met another one and made out with her kissed a lot she was on top of me No intercourse, no penetration and eventually I blew my load, she didn?t even touch my cock, I was limp and I just blew my load all over the place, it was kind of embarrassing to cum without a hard on. I felt like shit
lyon03
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Thank you for sharing friend. That took a lot of courage. I think what you've referred to is called "gateway porn." 12-step programs also call them "middle circle behaviours" https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Three_circles. I'd recommend reading a book about sex addiction called "Breaking the Cycle." I read it during my first 100 days and it was instrumental in helping me get control over my own addictions to porn, sex, and masturbation. Once technique from the book comes to mind. It's called "What else?" When I feel myself getting that particular sexual itch, I pause and think "What else?" That usually reminds me that while I can have these feelings, I don't necessarily need to act on them. Please keep posting and sharing my friend. You're not alone. PORN IS NOT AN OPTION.