Time to get my head back in the game

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Mad Mike

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Hi guys, first of all I messed up I relapsed back in august and again and again I was watching porn on average once a week and fell back into old ways. Well I've decided enough is enough and it's time to change I managed to stay sober for 6 whole month prior to going off the rails. I'll be checking in daily maybe more than once and would appreciate any advice and words of encouragement. Peace
 
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Numez

Guest
how you went off the rails after 6 months? was it just the craving or somehow you unknowingly fucked yourself up and now you know better?

 
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Mad Mike

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I didn't really get cravings I think the main thing that did it for me was going on dating sites and from there I went to a casual sex site which had links to a cam site and thats where I fucked up.
 
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Mad Mike

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But yes I now know better I learned the hard way but in my opinion dating sites etc should be avoided as it's potentially the start of a slippery slope
 
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William

Guest
I have found that using this site, when tempted, to write, journal, encourage, and be encouraged, is helpful.  Hope to see more of your posts, Mike. 

Much love.

Will I AM
 
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Mad Mike

Member
Checking in not checked in for a couple of days everything ok so far but the urges are strong a friend has put some safeguard settings on my internet and she has the password
 
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Mad Mike

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Reporting in. Today's been a really good day no cravings for porn and had a great training session down at the gym but I know not every day will be this good as this is only my 5th day clean on my latest attempt
 
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Mad Mike

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Checking in! Today is day 8 of the reboot flatline is here in full swing! No libido and generally low energy and not much enthusiasm for things still managing to get to the gym and eat well
 
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Mad Mike

Member
So reporting in on day 44 things going well on the no Point front I avoid Anything remotely eye catching. Sadly I'm still stuck in a flatline I come out for a day or two max and then back into flatline I do get some morning wood's but not very strong 50% best usually I have had very little rewiring with women but I have kissed and fooled around with a woman and I felt some electricity downstairs. Insomnia can be bad some nights I sleep for 3 hours at a time and have had some quite vivid sexual dreams anxiety comes and goes but it's not as bad or as constant so I am pleased with my progress so far
 
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William

Guest
The six months you were clean will help a lot this time around.  Now you know you can do it; you are not crossing your fingers and hoping you can.

W.
 
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Mad Mike

Member
Just checking in with some positive vibes, this weekend my ex who I remained friends with met up and I managed to have successful sex yaay I did feel a little worried at first I wouldn't have been able to perform but it was decent definitely a step in the right direction but having had sex I feel like it's put me back into flatline
 
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