jfb
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Well, here I am.
I want to turn my life upside down. I want to stop dreaming, and start living. It's been over a year since I discovered I suffer from PMO addiction. I had suffered performance anxiety with previous girlfriends I had, but I always blamed my lack of experience. After watching that TEDx presentation by Gary Wilson, it dawned on me that for the last 15ish years I had been conditioning my brain through high-speed porn and unfathomable fantasies. I have been trying since April 2013 to shake myself off this, with varying luck. I did manage a good stretch of 60ish days, and some other 20ish days... but it all ended in a mess of anxiety attacks and guilt trips.
I will turn 30 in 47 days. In the past, I fantasized that by 30, I'd have a proper job, my own house and thinking of starting a family. I don't have any of those things... And I'm the sole reason for that. I know in my gut that I can do more, way more, to get all that, and more.
My plan is to turn 30, and be able to feel damn proud of the last 47 days of effort - and have a solid ground from where to grow as a human being.
Let the countdown begin.
I want to turn my life upside down. I want to stop dreaming, and start living. It's been over a year since I discovered I suffer from PMO addiction. I had suffered performance anxiety with previous girlfriends I had, but I always blamed my lack of experience. After watching that TEDx presentation by Gary Wilson, it dawned on me that for the last 15ish years I had been conditioning my brain through high-speed porn and unfathomable fantasies. I have been trying since April 2013 to shake myself off this, with varying luck. I did manage a good stretch of 60ish days, and some other 20ish days... but it all ended in a mess of anxiety attacks and guilt trips.
I will turn 30 in 47 days. In the past, I fantasized that by 30, I'd have a proper job, my own house and thinking of starting a family. I don't have any of those things... And I'm the sole reason for that. I know in my gut that I can do more, way more, to get all that, and more.
My plan is to turn 30, and be able to feel damn proud of the last 47 days of effort - and have a solid ground from where to grow as a human being.
Let the countdown begin.