Hey,
This is a big start for me, I made this account to aid me with my first proper reboot attempt- and all advice or help would really be appreciated.
My Background
I started masturbating regularly at around 12/13, but nothing out of control. It was around 15 it probably got worse, as I used it as a release from the stress of exams, probably once to twice a day. At this same time I got a long term girlfriend, and I was masturbating throughout this time. We had sex a couple times, but I had to be tipsy to do this, as I was worried about my performance. To make me feel manly I masturbated as an outlet, to the point when we next went to have sex, she was pleasuring me and I randomly went flaccid. I felt so emasculated, and it was because I could get hard watching porn it made me feel normal. This is where I got pied at 16, I'm 18 now and I'd say I masturbate on average 1-2 a day, at most 3.
Other Stuff
Other things I guess would be key in giving some background; I know I've got PIED, but I'm not really addicted to porn. Obviously I am to an extent, but what I mean is if I have stuff distracting me I can go without it quite easily- I can go to 5 day festivals and not notice for example.
Secondly, I know I'm 100% straight (not barking up the wrong trees or anything).
Thirdly, in the 2 years since the aforementioned girlfriend, I've had sexual experiences but just not involving me. I normally blame it on alcohol-consumption and just focus on them- sometimes when doing this I'll get 60% tops.
I've never got into anything weird- I mean the standard stuff so still unhealthy fantasies but nothing strange.
Finally, occasionally I'll get a random erection . Sometimes morning wood as well- such as at festivals. I'm careful not to overplay this and someone say I'll be cured in a few weeks or something, they are very occasional and I normally get excited and masturbate- which evidently fries the neuro-link thing in my head even more. Nonetheless, they are still there ever so occasionally.
Questions
This is the stuff I'd really appreciate answers for.
Given all this information, I'm 18, very healthy (Athlete) with a good diet- can anyone give me an estimate on my reboot? I know its extremely individual, but I'm reading about 90 days for the standard?
I've read up on the flatline- basically having this PIED has given me depression already (I think)- I really don't like it when people use depression without a diagnosis and use it as an adjective- so I'd like to clarify I haven't been diagnosed, but I have a decent grounding in mental health so I'm fairly sure. So my question is: When I hit flatline, will this make me feel worse or will I feel pretty much the same?
Can I still use instagram and snapchat, given that I have some girls on there that post suggestive photos?
I've read about taking supplements like Zinc- Does this help?
Rewiring also, my self esteem (which was never great regardless of PIED) is not going to let me get into a relationship with a girl and tell her I have it, certainly not at the moment. I do however kiss girls if the situation arises at clubbing/parties. Does this count as rewiring, or is this something I should avoid as well?
Finally, without meaning to sound conceded or boasting- I'm not a bad looking guy so I've had/still have quite a few girls coming onto me or wanting to have sex- I've had to make excuses and turn every girl I've liked away for awhile- which i suppose is whats making me feel so down and driving me to do this. Can I use viagra to have sex (which I haven't tried yet) or is this an absolute no-go?
I know that is a lot of information, but I'd really appreciate any/as much help as I can get.
I already feel better for writing this. Thanks in advance, stay in the fight guys, I'll use you as inspiration. Best of luck!
This is a big start for me, I made this account to aid me with my first proper reboot attempt- and all advice or help would really be appreciated.
My Background
I started masturbating regularly at around 12/13, but nothing out of control. It was around 15 it probably got worse, as I used it as a release from the stress of exams, probably once to twice a day. At this same time I got a long term girlfriend, and I was masturbating throughout this time. We had sex a couple times, but I had to be tipsy to do this, as I was worried about my performance. To make me feel manly I masturbated as an outlet, to the point when we next went to have sex, she was pleasuring me and I randomly went flaccid. I felt so emasculated, and it was because I could get hard watching porn it made me feel normal. This is where I got pied at 16, I'm 18 now and I'd say I masturbate on average 1-2 a day, at most 3.
Other Stuff
Other things I guess would be key in giving some background; I know I've got PIED, but I'm not really addicted to porn. Obviously I am to an extent, but what I mean is if I have stuff distracting me I can go without it quite easily- I can go to 5 day festivals and not notice for example.
Secondly, I know I'm 100% straight (not barking up the wrong trees or anything).
Thirdly, in the 2 years since the aforementioned girlfriend, I've had sexual experiences but just not involving me. I normally blame it on alcohol-consumption and just focus on them- sometimes when doing this I'll get 60% tops.
I've never got into anything weird- I mean the standard stuff so still unhealthy fantasies but nothing strange.
Finally, occasionally I'll get a random erection . Sometimes morning wood as well- such as at festivals. I'm careful not to overplay this and someone say I'll be cured in a few weeks or something, they are very occasional and I normally get excited and masturbate- which evidently fries the neuro-link thing in my head even more. Nonetheless, they are still there ever so occasionally.
Questions
This is the stuff I'd really appreciate answers for.
Given all this information, I'm 18, very healthy (Athlete) with a good diet- can anyone give me an estimate on my reboot? I know its extremely individual, but I'm reading about 90 days for the standard?
I've read up on the flatline- basically having this PIED has given me depression already (I think)- I really don't like it when people use depression without a diagnosis and use it as an adjective- so I'd like to clarify I haven't been diagnosed, but I have a decent grounding in mental health so I'm fairly sure. So my question is: When I hit flatline, will this make me feel worse or will I feel pretty much the same?
Can I still use instagram and snapchat, given that I have some girls on there that post suggestive photos?
I've read about taking supplements like Zinc- Does this help?
Rewiring also, my self esteem (which was never great regardless of PIED) is not going to let me get into a relationship with a girl and tell her I have it, certainly not at the moment. I do however kiss girls if the situation arises at clubbing/parties. Does this count as rewiring, or is this something I should avoid as well?
Finally, without meaning to sound conceded or boasting- I'm not a bad looking guy so I've had/still have quite a few girls coming onto me or wanting to have sex- I've had to make excuses and turn every girl I've liked away for awhile- which i suppose is whats making me feel so down and driving me to do this. Can I use viagra to have sex (which I haven't tried yet) or is this an absolute no-go?
I know that is a lot of information, but I'd really appreciate any/as much help as I can get.
I already feel better for writing this. Thanks in advance, stay in the fight guys, I'll use you as inspiration. Best of luck!