biglou6537
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I've been dealing with this with my wife as well, and for some years now. It started about 3 to 4 years ago when I was extremely overweight (Bout 500lbs), and my doc found that I had low levels of testosterone. Well, fast forward to now and with the help of sleeve surgery and working out I've lost about 200lbs. I've also been able to come off of the blood pressure meds all together, which my doc also believes was affecting me. At first, I believe, I struggled with erections after losing the weight because of performance anxiety and it weighing heavy on my mind all the time. I'm a bit of a perfectionist, and the fact that I felt and still feel like I can't please my wife how she wants, really messes with my head. But I should be fine now with the weight loss and my workout regiment, but I'm not. My wife and I want children, and it's going to take some fertility treatments for us to conceive. I talked to a therapist about this same issue a few months back, because my wife is past fed up with the our lack of intimacy due to me, and she thinks it's her and that I'm not attracted to her, but I truly am. I realize now that my porn use, which is what I turn to when we're fighting and sleeping in separate rooms, is contributing to me ED, if not being the full cause. I'm really going to stop watching porn and stop masturbating all together and get my self right for my wife. What I'm really struggling with is how do I tell her what I believe the real problem is? I'm a man who can sometimes have too much pride, and I don't know how she will take it. It kills me to see her so down and hurt about the way our sex life is, and some of things she says really gets to me, because I guess I'm more sensitive than I thought I was. But it's so bad now that she doesn't even want to talk about it, nor does she want to try very much anymore, because she's tired of things not going as planned,which is about 90% of the time. I don't want to lose my wife, but how do I relay this info to her without her losing respect for me?