That is porn brain talking.
If, when you see a woman, you see some nymphomaniac who wants screamy sex with a guy with a giant wang, you are seeing incorrectly. Even the porn stars themselves aren't like that... they're acting. In fact, injuries from that type of sex aren't uncommon, and I've read stories of young women having to drive themselves to the emergency room after some of the violent stuff they go through in front of the camera. If you can sit through the potential triggers, google something like "how big is too big" and you'll read stories about how women really don't enjoy it that much for many of those reasons.
I am a firm believer that an ESSENTIAL part of rewiring is seeing women differently. Consider this an opportunity. If you relapse and watch one of those scenes, remember that the woman isn't enjoying it like she acts it out, and she might in fact be quite sad, scared and/or hurting while putting on that face. You can see better value in yourself when you realize that women hold more important things as valuable. I'm not going to say that shallow women don't exist (they certainly do), but even the most shallow women out there are far more beautiful, far more complicated, and far more important than the average porn caricature.
